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2007-12-18T21:12:00.001+08:00

sometimes i realli dun get it. isnt there supposed to be more freedom when u reach a certain age? its not supposed to get restricted more rite? nonsensical world. damn it.

2007-12-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

today is by far the best day of the whole yr!

surprise birthday party organised by SHARMIN and MY FAMILY.. thanx so much also to DHIVYA, JAGA, NAVIN, DEEPA, JAMUNA, NIVEDITA, and MATHANGI for coming..

probably nvr been so shocked in my life... didnt expect it at all........ man.. still a bit stunned..
man.. thanx for all the presents over the week too! realli like them all...
i dunno wat to say alr.. maybe tmr.. when i can think clearer... lol

2007-11-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

i know i always start off my blog entries like this.. but seriously... its been AGES since i blogged.. lol

think it was partly due to the fact that my life became rather mechanical.. wake up go sch come home.. hahas.. i think ever since going out stopped, all my posts also stopped.. hahas. kk lets see the most impt thing that happened.. is that A LEVELS IS FREAKING OVER!!!!!

and since then it has been enjoy enjoy enjoy all the way!!
friday itself.. was like.. thing most of the arts classes were walking out of sch smiling, jumping dancing, and talking at the top of their voices.. (or maybe that was just my class) we went and caught game plan.. which was a super fantastic movie.. the girl was so cute... and the woman.. was hot.. shiok movie.. i think the pple at gv also knew we had no more A's.. gave us so many things free.. i bought a coke... duh.. shared a tub of cotton candy with vidhya, farhana got popcorn.. quite a lot alr.. then the pple decided to give us 2 packets of twisties free!! man.. eating spree!! aft the movie couldnt take it alr.. my dinner was dessert... ICE CREAM.. super super high day...

saturday was spent partly catching up on lost sleep.. adn then it was continuation of deepavali visiting.. lol went to aunty deepas hse for dinner.. so shiok.. she fed us damn well.. nvr seen my sisters take so many helpings of fd la.. hahaha.. damn funny.. sunday.. was just shopping shopping and more shopping.. was in PS with my family.. wahh the amt of things we bought.. or rather i bought.. but it was on a need basis k.. not a want basis.. bought a dress that day too! nice nice..

monday.. my second tamil movie in the theatres with deepa, vidhya, naseemah and machan! hahas we watched vel.. not bad la... quite nice... then soon aft the movie went home la... tired..

tuesday was our class bbq! got a few poor pple sick... but well look on the bright side.. it didnt happen last week!! hahas that would have been bad.. anyways the bbq was quite gd... though wz was quite stressed.. cuz we didnt have starter.. then couldnt start the bbq till quite late.. hahas.. and the teachers had to do a lot la.. ms zhu was rite there man.. starting the fire and cooking the fd.. ms chan joined in to cook the fd.. ms johnson had to leave early so sad... haha.. christmas exchange was great... teachers each received a diary.. for 2008.. all hand made by our class.. or rather wanding syl lky yujia and i not sure who else.. but they realli did a great job.. was damn nice.. adn the christmas exchange.... i had to give to kelvin.. damn funny. got him this worlds best bullshitter cert and did a bk of insults.. man.. thats like ammunition for him.. wz bought for me!! AGAIN.. totally didnt expect it.. last yr he got me.. he came and ask me.. wat to buy for a girl ahh.. then i sorta suspected.. was pointing out.. all the soap and shampoo nicely packaged and i even said the wrapping paper i wanted.. man.. he bought all that in hte wrapping paper.. dman funny... then this yr.. i told him the same thing when he asked me.. easiest thing to buy for a girl is all those soap stuff.. cuz girls will confirm use one.. then he said he cant exactly buy soap agn rite.. i said can wat.. unless its for me agn la.. then cannot.. damn funny.... think he must have been having a real laugh... then i suggested the initial necklace... and he got it for me!! wz i must say.. has gd taste... its damn nice! lol.. the bbq was fun la... shiok to just sit ard and laugh with the teachers and all....

wed was stay at home day.. read a bk.. relaxed.. went to highlight y hair.. but so sad... cant realli be seen.. ): oh well will redo it soon.. red!! hahahaha

thurs.. was all over the place... met joycelin and minser in the morn!!!!! like finally........... then went to walk ard a bit.. had lunch at taco bell!! yum yum yum....... then watched hero.. aft that.. everybody damn tired... then took train planning to go home...
then on a hunch i stopped at yishun, got in touch with dhivya.. and we went to see taj.. LOL in her worse hair state ever... damn funny.. he couldnt move her head much.. cuz all her hair getting curled in the salon.. aft that.. went to amk to meet some of the anderson guys and vinayak.. and aft her while went home la..

ltr got farewell..
so exciting..... hahahaha

2007-07-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

been a long time since a blogged..

let me summarise my exams

happy with geog and econs.. though next time i need to pass econs..
maths was disappointing.. like can actually do most of the questions.. damn shit
chem was... well.. i realli dunno how to do la.. hahas

im not sure y.. but been realli tired this wk and last wk.. my friends havent failed to tell me.. haha. i also dunno why. then sick today.. but i wanna do pe tmr! haha

not going to sch today was gd.. catch up on slp for most of the day..shiok. long long day tmr.. man. sch is starting to suck. next wk.. omg. damn shit la. end damn late on wed and fri. and wed is supposed to be my 1045 day!! sighs.

wk started with one big emotional turmiol.. but turned out to be a gd one.. thanx to geog and econs.. lol.

caught harry potter ytd
must say a bit disappointing.. very rushed.. shld have been like a 3 hr movie... but nice to see some parts visualised in the movie..
oh wells im off now..

2007-06-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

ytd was a super fun day..
woke up at 745 and smiled. cuz i can finally get ready! dunno why i was so excited la.
met jaga, haresh, dinu, sharmin in the train and went to sch and played captains ball with the tl girls. damn fun la. i laughed a lot.. damn happy la. was raining so we were playing in the mph. then aft that the guys also came and played captains ball amg themselves. that was rather funny also. they looked quite "wrong" a lot of times la. hahas. aft that they went to play soccer and we continued playing. dunno wat i was doing playing defender though. hahas. bballers will laugh since i so short.. hahas.

aft that we went and watched the guys match for a while and we walked round the track in the rain. quite fun.. the steeple chase thingy was filled with water la. so since it was subha's birthday, we threw her in! hahas then not only her.. manju, jamuna, dhivya, vithya mathangi all wet. me sharmin all smart. haha nvr get wet lol. aft that sit and talked for a while then went back and play some more. but a bit tired alr. went to bathe soon aft that... that was funny. i think most pple used my soap and shampoo hahas. dhivya they all came in they were wild la. hahas singing all. they were heard frm the mph la!! damn funny..

aft that went to eat.. i forgot that i usually not very hungry aft running ard. i forgot. so i didnt finish most of my food.. then went to play pool for a while. fun fun. then went to peninsula plaza with jaga navin and sundaram.. supposed to follow jaga buy knee guard and jersey la. but in the end i aslo bought a knee guard.. my knee was quite pain alr la. then i try on the knee guard. wahh the feeling was so shiok. felt damn nice la. then i bought it. lol can wear for match tmr. yay!

2007-06-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

today was a happy day! so high hahas. studied with sharmin and sunlu today.. sunlu woke up late la.. she came a few hrs ltr. hahas studied till 5 plus then went to walk ard hub.. cuz i realli wanted to buy a ring! craving sia. and i found a realli realli nice heart shaped ring at amk hub. damn nice la. i wore it and knew it was just for me! hahas fit my finger perfectly too! think im nvr gonna stop wearing it alr. hahas. aft that went to toapayoh with sunlu. so long la since we've been there. went to cut hair. thinned my hair a bit.. she blew my hair straight for me. so cool straight hair can! until i bathed hahas. but i think i prefer my usual curls. hahas. straight hair so normal.. hahas. af that went to eat at koufu! had my salmon teriyaki!! yum yum.. used to be like old times when me and her used to go eat there aft our trngs.. the gd old days.. talked a lot.. and crapped too. hahas. tmr meeting up with elsie.. feel all 'ijy" all of a sudden. hahas. oh wells.. :)

2007-06-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

ytd was an extremely long day.. went to sch in teh morning to meet sharmin.. she was helping the rangoli girls.. yupps. studied there for a while.. then went to eat with her at banquet! chicken briyani yumyum. long time since i had it. always eat mutton one. hahas. aft that headed to macs to study. studied till 5 then went walk ard then headed to aljunied for the match against stackers. so funny la!! hahas so many pple were late.. some of them caught in bad traffic! then so many pple havent get their jerseys yet la! so went the match started, only 6 pple had jersey. so 5 of us had to play la! so funny. shina me anet joan and cindy? sorry cant rmr yr name. shina ball control.. i think she damn stressed some more.. oh wells. coach like finally arrived and gave the rest their jerseys.. so they changed.. and we sub in the correct pple.. hahas. everyone so happy to see xiao hei run on court. hahas. cuz finally we got ball controller hahahas. played against ivana avis and jane. man. they quite gd la. and i damn damn damn happy! cuz my 3 pointers all went in!! i think ytd i shot in 3. and fouled 3 times. hahas. 3 was my lucky number ytd man! hahas.. so nice la the feeling.. of shooting during a match agn.. wahh. happy sia. 3 u know!! hahas. k la a bit high. dun mind me.. just carry on with yr lives. :))

alvina is extremely HAPPY and HIGH!!!!

2007-06-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

woke up groaning today.. i think the first words out of my muth were "NOOOOOO..." had to go to sch by 8 am today for maths lecture.. that itself was damn long adn boring... but i tink i understand abit.. yeah.. aft that went to j8 long johns with dhivya and sharmin to eat lunch.. then headed back to sch for econs.. think im actually beginning to understand smth.. hahas. i like our lecturer. shes damn clear la. not like... hahas supposed to do a essay for the next lecture for the differentiated prog. for once i think i actually understand wat shit is happening.. wahaha. aft that went with sharmin to get a dress for my cousins rom next sun.. i like that dress :) at first wanted to buy a purple one.. but dun have alr.. :( oh well brown is nice too!! hahas. aft that headed to yishun to catch shrek 3! hahas yay! so nice and funny! i like i like. :))

real dad's birthday today.. havent got him anything.. but then agn he was 5 months late wasnt he.. ohwells.

2007-05-31T00:30:00.001+08:00

how to lose a guy in 10 days is damn nice!

and Matthew McConaughey is freaking hot.

great movie man. makes u feel all lovey dovey hahas

2007-05-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

successful studying today! HAHAS. not like ytd. hahas. ytd me and nas went to study. so funny la. we wanted to study at clementi macs.. but too crowded. so we walked to the kfc. then kfc was aslo crowded. it was lunch time u see. hahas. so we shopped for a while outside kfc. then got seats so we went in. we studied for a while then we ate.. then we went to play pool hahaha! i introed her hahas. so fun la. we played in clementi during non peak hrs. so damn cheap. we played for almost 2 hrs. but we payed abt $4.50 each only.. hahas i got her addicted.. wah.. my craving for pool is getting out of hand. hahas. think when i grow up. i wanna pool table in my hse.. wahhh so shiok can like that. hahas let me dream for a while..

hahas today met kelvin at 11 and went to bk in yishun to study.. hj and wz were late.. hahas. effective studying till abt 4 hahas. then went northpoint for a while then came hm and slept for a while.. now got how to lose a guy in 10 days! wahh. nice romantic movie. hahas :)

2007-05-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

today was a realli fun and funny day.
met hei in the morn and went to SBC for match. play for coach's outside team so fun!! was quite funny actually.. the game was at 12. then it was like 1145 and we still havent got our jerseys la!! and like the other team was like warming up alr.. then coach came with the jerseys.. we ran to change la. then we havent even shoot ball.. start playing le. hahas. we only got run.. hahahas. then straight away played. coach made me play first. i so shocked la. been a while since i played.. but yeah damn happy la! 3 points were sucky but who cares. they werent totally off the mark hahas. aft the whole thing went to eat subway yumyum! been so long since i had. cuz everytime i go to amk hub, i see subway and then i see pepper lunch next to it.. soooo.. guess where i end up eating hahas. oh wells.

i need to satisfy my craving for pool!! ahh!!

studying tmr. wa.. i feel sian alr. nvm there are some things that u msut do. hahas
ciao!

2007-05-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

fun fun day today.
went to catch pirates with navin and marc. wah damn nice la. but super long sia. 3 freaking hrs. jack sparrow is damn cool. or rather johnny depp. and of course orlando bloom. that one dun need to say la. hahas watched 2nd row from front. sit until neck pain la!

hahas. aft that jaga joined us and went to amk to play pool.. shiok la. hahas. i can tell my finger's recovering. hahas. when i first started playing agn aft i injured it cannot play properly la! hahas. couldnt realli hold the stick. but now. im starting to pick myself up. hahas think i shocked jaga today. wahaha. i feel like pooling agn. la. maybe as an incentive to study. hahas.

gotta finish differentiation, integration and functions by 1st june. omg. hahas. aft that went for dinner with jaga cuz the rest of them had smth on.. pepper lunch! for dinner. ahh the irony. hahas. yumyum. although i didnt finish the fd. nth new.. long ride home man. new topic of discussion hahas. actually i dun mind talking abt it. just that needs a lot of time to cover all the aspects. hahas. and for the first time the ride from amk to cck is too short hahahas.

somehow wat owner said is true. wat doesnt kill u makes you stronger. hahas is so agree. thats why i dun run away from probs i guess. somewhere in me is this iron wall of strength frm somewhere. my personal pillar of strength.. smth i rely on. until it overwhelms me. which may happen once in a while. though seldom. i know everyone has their share of probs. but somehow i feel that if many would have broke with my share of them.. so i thank god for the iron pillar of strength, that started out in me from a early age. or earlier than most pple. reflective mood. this is call time for yrself. hahas.

tmr got match. omg. so long since i played ball! aiyo. stressed. i think coach will ask me to play a lot somemore. haiz hope all goes well. and i come out with fine fingers, ankles and knees hahas :))

2007-05-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

went to the gym ytd. and this morning too.. ytd was a bit more entertaining. today i damn sian alr la. hahas. tired i guess. so today i slacked. except for the part when i overdid it on my arms. hahas i was pulling the weights down marked 20. damn light la. so i did a lot. think i did ard 120. and my arms still not tired la. so i thought smth must be wrong.. lucky i stopped. cuz now my arms alr aching badly hahas. shower in the gym was just shiok la.

aft that went to eat and subway. then bumped into wz whose dad drove us to sch. i didnt bring my tie la today. lucky wz's dad drove him to huijie's hse first so he borrowed tie and collar pin from her hahas. then aft that went to sch and went to tl room. hahas. helped them a bit la. here and there. then went to sit down in hall to watch the event. poor sri and shrek in front of her. hahas. tl dance was havoc la. hahas. damn nice. the only performance that the crowd cheered for and clapped super loudly. :) aft the performance went back to tl room then went at eat with everybody at s11. as usual nvr finish my fd hahas. but had 2 drinks hahas. talked a while too. then came back aft that. man. i came home and bathe finish... and everybody in my hse slp alr. wahh. always left only me awake at night la! hahas. ohwells. i think i have insomnia. so late alr and im not tired la. hahas weird me. i thought all the gym and all will make me tired la. think its cuz i slept in the train just now. hahas. nvm tmr i can slp in! :)

2007-05-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

loadsa things happened this week. for one, its been a tiring one hahas. tuesday we ended off with electives. leroy got a little pissed once la. cuz we nvr answer him.. but its a gd course la. somehow we learn a lot.. wed was the finals for volleyball girls and boys and semi-finals for bball girls and guys. pity we lost all 4 matches. i went there earlier with wd. we took the bus with the bballers. then when the girls were playing, i was videotaping the match.. wa lao. im such a lousy videtaper hahas. keep getting excited over the match then forget to turn the camera hahas. so got some parts the camera not at the place where the ball was hahas. oh wells. too exciting. and poor wanding lost her phone aft that lor! thurs was a boring day. long and tiring.. managed to finish all my hw the day b4. then spent breaks slping. today was a fun day. pe in the morning. we took height and weight, then ran 2 rounds.. aft that we played frisbee.. ding was my partner. she pass damn well la. her frisbee fly very straight very nice. mine like curve a lot. hahas. and i catch frisbee like catching bball like that. hahahas. but ok la very fun. aft that geog and maths was a blur. prawn mee aft that! then had headache.. a realli bad one when i stand up. but when i sit down like dun have so weird. so i didnt go for gp. and i went to reading room and talked to sri then slept. damn shiok. chem was ok too. ionic equilibria was nice. chemical equilibria is the one that sux. hahas that and chem bonding.. haham oh ya. got back my maths test the other day. i PASSED it. its been a long time man. probability saved my life. full marks! haha. vetors was so crap and then complex was ok. so i passed. wahh damn happy sia. now theres chem test to get back on mon adn econs test on wed. aiyo. if i pass my econs test, i'll i dunno scream or smth. i nvr pass econs before la. well there's always a first.

2007-05-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

been in a rather reflective mood lately. dunno wat brought in the reminiscing mood. hahas.

thinking abt all that has happened the past few yrs. many things, many changes, some that i thought may even tear me apart.

but somehow i managed to deal with them all. problems big and small just thrown at me. yet i just catch them with my hands and handle the impact. (parden the imagery im a bballer aft all..) though i thought i couldnt deal with them initially, somehow i always did. even though given a choice i wouldn't have faced any of it. but im glad i did. somehow it changed me. made me see things in a different way. realise theres a lot of things in life. and made me more mature. even to the extent that i dun care abt things most girls get affected by. hahas. in a way i was forced to grow up and mature.

but then i wonder would i want myself to be any other way? no. i like myself the way i am. i guess though i faced more problems than an average teen shld have, it made me who i am. so im appreciative of that. there's always a reason to problems i guess, always a lesson to be learnt by them. k thats the optimistic side of me.

then there's the pessimist in me who wonders how much more do i have to deal with? arent i mature enough?

oh wells note the optimistic part is much longer hahas.

today was a rather boring day. only highlight was pepper lunch! hahas. pe was ok too. had to do makeup ran 6 rounds slowly with sri. we talked all the way la. then i went to tl room where they were all getting ready for the college day rehearsals. i must say no matter how much i watch their dance, i can nvr get sick and tired of it la. damn shiok. its realli damn gd. hahas. aft that had coke. wahaha. then came back home in the train with loadsa company. hahas. thats the gd thing abt going hm with tl pple. so many of them stay so far away.... hahas. k i gtg do gp essay. man.

2007-05-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

ytd i learnt smth abt myself. when im angry realli angry, i cant think straight. so pls. if u see that im angry, dun let me do anything abt the matter until my head clears. man. hahas.
anger just deludes the mind. thank god i dun feel angry often. sorry if i shocked a few pple. hahas.

today was a rather slack day. just tired i guess. woke up at 7 plus and got ready to visit my grandma from my dads side. she was soo happy to see my mom.. i could realli see the difference in her. so nice to see her so happy. how simple things can create such joy in a person is just amazing. came home and ate lunch aft that and slept. so emotionally drained. sometimes i think have too much things to think abt. sometimes it just overwhelms. u can just feel the heaviness at the back of yr head. sighs.. i wanna run until all my problems disappear. or until im too exhausted to think.

oh wells. next week got econs and chem test! shit. econs i think confirm fail la. study also cant pass it one. sian..

2007-05-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

as i predicted i was rather high today. hahas. annoucement of tl exco and bball getting into top 4 realli did it for me man. must congradulate all the bballers and DEEPA! so happy she made it to the exco. hahas. day was basically boring. chem lecturer came a period late. so we had lecture for half an hr. hahas. hmm lets see wat else happened.. oh ya.. the h2 tutorials. geog was shit today man. i dun understand a thing! i thought hydro was gonna be so fun. hahas. let me correct that. the river part is shiok. but this potential evaporation vs actual evaporation and precipitation thingy sux. hahas. maths tutorial was shiok. cuz mrs cheong didnt come. spent it slacking. then econs tutorial.. boring as usual. only had 8 pple in class la. the rest all got smth on. man. then aft that went and slack all then went hm with deepa, devi, nivedha all. boring day man.. tmr i think more exciting. can wear hse t-shirt to sch apparently. hahas. then first period got pe. man. but i think i can like leave aft geog. yay! hahas

2007-05-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

wed is supposed to be a sian day where i dun have to wake up. hahas but had maths test today. was so super crap la! oh man. dun even get me started on that. hahas.. so aft the depressing maths test, went to eat ice cream with ding! hahas cookies and cream cornetto. yumyum. hahas. aft that came home and slept for 2 hrs. hahas. dunno why i always wake up automatically aft 2 hrs. hahas. aft that did a lot of work today! so proud of myself. im turning into a gd girl. hahas. i did geog tutorial, and a drq and maths and started on econs. but i didnt finish econs la. cuz i dunno how to do. hahas. oh wells tmr got one and a half hrs break anyway. shiioook. hahas. almost the end of the week. somehow i feel that this weekend got a lot of things to do. chem test and econs test next wk. plus i wanna go gym. :)

bball girls made it to top 4 today!!! woohoo!! congrats guys. seriously. u guys deserve it.. :)

happy happy day. think i'll be high tmr. hahas.

2007-05-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

today's a great day! i dunno why. hahas this its cuz of the MOCHA i had in the morn. make me high. hahas then wanding made me do econs too. which was a gd thing. cuz i understood the lesson. managed to ask her qns all. then econs lecture aft that i paid attention.

its like a record for me. yes i have paid attention in class before and listened during lecture b4. but nvr in the same day. man. wats wrong with me. think im sick. hahas. aft that went for chem tutorial and i answered a chemical bonding qn correctly and i drew the diagram correctly! i have NEVER done that. hahas so cool la.. trigonal pyramidal shape and dative bond. waah smth seriously wrong with me today.

i feel intelligent. wahahaha

aft chem went to norhtpoint with james wz kelvin and nicholas. yumyum. had salmon teriyaki. james just whack the briyani. btw to those idiot in my class its briYAni. not brani. hahas. aft that bought a water bottle from sportslink. yay. hahas.

i feel high. k off to study maths. i cant believe this. i even feel like doing the next econs tutorial and maths one too. man.

2007-05-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

today was a damn happening day!
so fun. met deepa, haresh, dinu and rani in the train and went to little india. we bumped into so many pple in the way la! hahas. all in green so easy to recognise. hahas went there at ard 12 when it was supposed to start, and we were the earliest la! my god. everybody like come late only. and we so hungry la. hahas. then we played charades for a while before veera and mr mohan came. wa lao. marc straight away sabo me la. here i am trying to hide cuz i like nvr watch tamil movie in my life, and there he is calling out my name first. but lucky sri was nice to me! she gave me a easy title. i had to act out boys. so yeah just point to the whole grp only la. hahas. the teachers finally came aft an hr. omg. but well the fd was great la. seriously. only the drink so sad. i was hoping got free flow coke all. but well. it was lime juice. oh wells a girl can hope cant she. haha. had a lot of entertainment during the lunch itself. the j1 dance, the drama, lines from the debates.. hahas.. aft that followed them to sifas where they went to give their dance teacher smth.. then went to play pool! hahas today i can finally play. cuz my hand can finally grip the stick properly. my last finger still cannot straighten fully la. but at least can grip alr. so fun. realli enjoyed myself playing pool.

aft that wanted to go cck pick up my sis and then go to pasir ris chalet for my twin uncle's and aunty's 50th birthday celebration. fd was gd again. stayed for a while then dad dropped me back at cck.

im sick and tired. of being asked where my you are by dads family
im sick of making up excuses for u and seeing the disappointment in their faces
somehow im not hurt or angry. i dunno how i feel abt it anymore.
i guess its numbness that im feeling. and i feel so tired and resigned.
u all say i wont be involved, wont be caught in the middle.
but time and time again. it keeps happening. im sick of it. i hate it.
the responsibilty of it all, of being the mature one, the one who knows the right thing to do.
sometimes life just aint fair. shit happens. i'll deal with it.

you're just my father in name. nothing else. rmr that.
any feelings that i had for u disappeared a long time ago.
dun expect any from me. i just know too much abt all u've done.
u can try getting those feelings frm my sisters.
they probably can feel, everything that i cant, for u.

2007-05-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

ytd so shiok cuz lessons ended early for sports meet. hahas. but like so sad. we had most of our lessons la. the main thing we missed was our 2 1/2 hr break before pe!!! collected the tl shirt with nas also. wa super heavy sia. hahas.

sports meet was boring. seriously. the only nice parts were seeing the cheerleading and seeing rama like run like the freaking wind to get the only gold for jaguar that day. hahas. other than that so slack la. i think jaguar got last hahahas. but they only announced like top 3. congrats to sharmin man. my dearest cousin got 2nd for cheerleading and overall hse haha. so cuz of that.. me, dhivya and mathangi threw her into the pond hahas. then she gave everybody a hug hahas. the guys all attacked haresh instead.. poor guy. i wished him gd luck haha. aft that went to eat dinner with the girls at macs. on the way there we went to the swing and swang and swang and swang our heart out. literally hahas. aft that stomach all one kind la. hahas so dinner at macs i only bought a fries and a coke.. and i didnt even finish the fries la! hahas. think it was the swing hahas. aft that me and mathangi went back to sch. then she went home and i went with to eat at yishun then buy the tickets for the show today.. hahas i had more coke too la. hahas

all the cold drinks that i drank seriously affected my knees can. at night. cuz i recently only went to the sinseh rite. then he told me not to drink cold drinks. then at night, my air con on, raining outside some more. my knee super pain sia. and my calve muscles all cramp up badly. i was so shocked la. was awake at 3 plus till 4 plus la. then i just took out the hot plasters paste on my knees rub the muscle relaxant on my calves and slp. so today i tried to relax on the cold drinks a bit. just a bit hahas went to meet navin vinayak and marc at yishun first and eat bk before movie. for once when i ordered i said no ice pls. scared alr la. then aft a while everybody came adn we finally watched spiderman!! so shiok. the show is super gd i must say. hahas. so nice la. eating like popcorn, nachos, cheese and mnms all at the same time and washing it all down with coke. hahahas. interesting combi. and did i mention the show rawked?! hahas super gd. and we were like the loudest bunch of pple there la hahas. forever laughing loudly hahas. aft that went to macs for ice cream then came home for dinner. and salmon and prawn and sotong and black pepper beef and crab!!!! OMG. so freaking shiok. so in conclusion.. today is just a super shiok day hahahas

2007-04-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

slack saturday. hahas. woke up late and had lunch. nice nice lunch. mom went fishing and came home with briyani! yumyum. been a long time since i had briyani. hahas then in the evening went to leamathi's hse for a second child's first b'day. so many pple nvr come la. hahas. bet all of them give excuse only hahas.. baby kept crying la.. but fd was ok la. though i think my mom can cook better.. wahaha. felt like a train driver la. cuz wherever i went behind me got 2 carriages (my sisters). wa they seriously stick to me like glue la. hahas but had fun today la i guess. :)

2007-04-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

busted phone. busted knee. busted family. sometime life just rox eh?

2007-04-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

ajc vs sajc today. so drama. i thought the nyjc match was nice. this was way better. more exciting. 3 quarters and the score was still a tie. scary la. then we finally pulled ahead in the last quarter by then points, then they slowly started catching up.. until they were like 3 points away frm us in the last few seconds of the game. hahas. coach told us to throw in ball and hold the ball down and sit down. YAY we won we won we won! hahas so high.. the fighting spirit today was fantastic. everybody played well. ilovemyteam. :)

my phone is screwed today. was gonna reply a msg frm a friend and it switched off! and it nvr came back on agn. omg. some more a lot of my recently added contacts are saved in the phone la. not in the sim card. sian. urgh. so frustrating.

2007-04-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

basketball seasons started today. not bad. both guys and girls won their matches against nyjc. so sad they went back with 2 losses! hahas. excuse for me started at 1115. which was kinda sad because i end classes at 1045! so its kinda useless for me. went down to SBC where me, mary, huiyi, qian xin were officials. taped the girls match man. omg! must say that i was a t the edge of my seat throughout the 3rd and 4th quarters. the score was seriously close la! but of course we were always ahead..hahas. a bit scared cuz felt the deja vu feeling that a repeat of last yr would happen.. was so scared i forgot to turn the camera at certain parts la! hahas so pls dun scream at me if u find some parts the camera not where the ball is hahas. oh wells.but alas! we won. guys dun need to say la. they won by a lot. of all the matches i watched today, (trust me i watched at least 8) i think the last match, cj vs jj boys was the most exciting la! at first jj was winning by a lot. then cj suddenly caught up then the score was like 48-49 in like the last 5 seconds.. cj losing and it was cj's ball. omg! so exciting. but so sad they didnt score. would have been exciting man. if they did. hahas aft that cleared up, looked for lost balls (some drama there) and cabbed back to aj with mr lim sk. huiyi talks abt the weirdest things. she asked why is pie (as in 3.14125...) called pie and how it came abt. then she asked how e, log and ln came abt. hahas that girl so crap la hahas

it hurt when u all left. and i remained behind.
it hurt when u all changed and i remained in uniform
it hurt to see u all warm up while i fiddled with the camera
it hurt to see u all win. while i could only watch from the sidelines

keep yr head up high alvina. u can do this. just a bit more

beneath that strong demeanor is just someone who needs a shoulder to lean on.

2007-04-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

hmm. been like emoing the past few days. dunno why hahas. happy a moment sad the next and angry the next. kinda weird cuz i'll be talking abt smth. then so happy. then just nice i'll be reminded of smth sad. then like the next moment was a bit pissed. man. i needed to cool down. hahas so i went for a walk to lot 1 and came back. hahas. bought some stuff ( coke adn chocs) hahas and felt better.

been tired also la. ytd went for choir concert. not bad man. but most of the songs like cannot understand hahas. oh wells quite nice la. by the time i came home and finished bathing was like 1220 alr.

so was quite dead during sch today. felt awake during gp lesson (during the shoot hang part). hahas. poor james was sick too. i think he got worse hahas. i mean like he couldnt finish his chicken rice can. and thats smth for him who usually eats chicken rice, western and prawn mee all at the same time hahas. todya dunno why la. for the second part of the day been having a headache la. urgh. for so long alr. its been like almost 8 hrs and its still there! haiz.

aft sch went to 4 seasons (or what used to be it). me and ding were walking ard this fashion while kelvin and wz went up to buy boots and shin guard for kelvin cuz someone stole his. stupid la he. leave his shoebag outside his hse. hahas. anyways. i think this fashion is getting weirder and weirder. hahas. i found 2 nice things though. super cheap sia!! i bought a skirt for 8 bucks and a dress for 12! my gosh. hahas. aft that went up to sportslink for a while. sighs. rmr everytime i go up there will like look at bball shoes. but now like theres no need le. sighs. kk i shall stop emoing. aft that went to hub with wz and ding. kel had to go back to sch for trng. ate subway.. and had a long talk abt a lot of things. main part was relationships. and their basis. and how relationships need maturity. and how it starts la. was a long conversation man. been a while hahas. me and ding were like talking abt how guys are confusing. and like were talking to wz abt how guys make the first move and all.. hahas i admit making the first move takes guts man. there's always that fear of rejection. hahas. oh wells. but if u dont face that rejection u'll nvr know rite? hahas.

aft that extremely long conversation that took almost 2 hrs, we went to ntuc buy stuff for family day. hahas bought like 5 bottles of hershey's syrup and 1 bottle of caramel. i hope the caramel dun suit waffle man. and the choc got leftover. then i can bring home!!! hahahahas. yumyum.

im confused. i dunno wat to think.

2007-04-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

tamil debates today. damn power la!! omg was damn nice. all of them spoke super well la. im pro tamil alr hahahas. as usual aj cheer is like the loudest. hahahas normally in tamil debates they nvr give the best speaker to the winning team. its always the losing team. so today when they announced shobana as best speaker, we got a shock la. all our hearts like sinking. then they annonuced the second team as PJC. oh man. u shld have heard us scream. wa lao. we all super super happy sia. everybody was just screaming and screaming. aft the show ended we all like ran on stage and started congratulating and hugging them. renuka rawked man. hahas. well they all did la. and of course we ended with our aj tl cheer. so shiok la. hahas aft that went to casuarina's curry to eat. had butter thosai. yumyumyum hahas ltr took train home.. had fun talking to everyone. until like nivedha even forgot her stop la! so funny. oh ya. now im known as mini zoo to mathangi and catwoman to jaga. hahahas. super addicted to nach baliye now omg.

2007-04-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

today was a fun day. hahas. pe they were doing 2.4 so basically i didnt have anything to do hahahs. done my napfa alr u see. so i sat there the whole time and gossiped with renuka hahas. so fun. then went to get pw results. got a B hahas. ok with it la. sad my class no one got a A can. anyways. aft that had prawn mee! hahas.

gp lecture was fun. kelvin is like officially known as the scratch the butt guy hahahas. it was a funny seen actually. we were supposed to answer this qn related to science and tech. was smth like " shld a patients personal information be made known to others?" hahas we all were in lt 4. and were sitting like at the left side.. t

he teacher started asking qns from the right side.. she was like "can the girl in the pe shirt pls come down and ans" (kelvin and wulin in their pe shirts btw) and kelvin straight away took out his sch uniform and started to put on la! i dunno whether it was the sudden movement or the quickness but the whole lt realised wat he was doing can! omg so funny a lot of pple started laughing. then wulin also started wearing a shirt. but her table had like a box of pretzos and her pencil case and wrkshts etc. so as she was wearing her shirt, her table fell. omg. the pretzos went flying can. it was open man. and it was all scattered over the chair in front of her. omg lucky got no one sitting on it sia. hahas that would have been interesting. then anyways the teacher came over and looked at the left side and said "aiya the boy in the pe shirt disappeared. but nvm i still rmr who u are pls come down." so no choice. kelvin had to go down and talk abt whether or not a patients personal info shld be revealed. so he went on abt how if this person has this like scratching the butt syndrome.. and how that would affect his job esp in the services sector or the hotel industry" so from then on.. he became known as the scratch the butt guy. for all those that did not know him. hahas.

then we had chem. must say that since organic chem has ended, chem has become boring agn. oh wells. so long la today the 2nd half of the day got 2 hrs of gp and 1 1/2hrs of chem can. but aft that went to eat pizza hut with hj and kel. yumyumyum. :)

2007-04-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

today was an extremely long and tiring day. sighs. dunno why la but last night couldnt realli fall aslp. just kept tossing and turning. so today super tired hahas. thursdays realli suck. so long and mentally draining. chem was interesting. hahas our lecturer was alvin yeong. 21 and 33 joined forces b4 the lesson started and did some stuff. hahahas. so funny sia. today i genuinely smiled. been i while. not smiling at a joke or smth. but at something that made be happy :)

2007-04-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for a long time. hahas lets see

sat
walking to sch was really hard. just felt the emotions running thru me man. guess i still havent realli recovered. arthur lim bought me breakfast and talked to me. talked abt a lot of things la. but the most impt thing was that i understand. ya. the matches were ok. got to play for a while.. then aft that went home with kelvin.

rested for a while then went for my cousin's wedding reception.. hahas. was nice. the fd was great compared to the day b4's. hahas the main reason was cuz there was meat. hahas. then had dancing and all so fun. except for the part where my sisters kept sticking to me like glue. omg. they seriously cant give me space to breathe la. i go up dance also they come there and stand and block pple's way and dun dance. omg. aft a while i cannot take it alr i disappeared for a while. hahas. then aft that when we were going home, got a lot of fights break out sia. so scary. like a lot of strong guys involved in the fight. and everybody was like gathered there man. either they were involved in the fight or they were stopping the fight. the only thing i find kinda amazing is that the women in saris were running ard trying to stop the fight hahas. that was an amazing and scary sight. hahas finally got hm at like 2 plus i think.

sun.
sunday was a great day hahas. caught the reaping. was an interesting movie. the plagues and all reminded me of the bible. and the fact that it was easter and that i shld be in church. hahas. interesting movie. though couldnt understand some parts. a bit scary la. esp when sharmin screams hahas. aft that sharmin left to go for her doctor's appointment and the rest of us went to chomp chomp to eat. had sting ray and rice. i finished the rice k! but they still say i eat very little hahas. then aft that went to ice cube to eat dessert. must say it was FANTASTIC. omg the dessert, ive nvr tasted better. it was so good. had the eyes wide open. omg it realli lives up to its name man. the top had like choc chips and choc powder. then the middle is mocha ice cream and the bottom is like brownie.. absolutely heavenly. :))

mon, tues
stayed at hm. elearning sux. takes damn long to open ivle, sign in and download. the downloading was the most irritating
first i was downloading gp. i went to the toilet came back and saw like " 88% downloaded estimated time left:21sec" it was like that for freaking 2 hrs. omg
then was downloading a lot of things aft that and i left the com on for super long la. just so that it can finish downloading. then this pop up came up saying that "the internet explorer is unable to download the XXX file. the operation timed out" omg. no comments le.

wed
finally i must wish my dearest JOYCELIN happy 18TH birthday. love my owner :))
sch was ok today. celebrated joyce's birthday in the morn and gave her her present. then had gp. everybody was like complaining abt e learning. did the survey and like so sad la. under the heading what was gd and useful abt elearning they didnt have 'nothing'. hahas we didnt have maths and then econs lecture was quite crap as usual. hahas

2007-04-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

"What Hurts The Most"
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see your old friends and I'm alone

Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed
Dealing with this regret
But I know if I could do it overI would trade
Give away
All the words that I say
Through my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

Is what I was trying to do
Oh wow oh wow

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

Is what I was trying to do
Yeah...
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

lyrics say it all. disappointment. but not destroyed. i must rmr what coach told me abt why its like this. then i'll be happy. but at the moment. a bit overwhelmed. sighs. but dun worry. alvina always survives. just dun mention the words basketball, trng and match forthe next few days. cuz u may be unable to deal with the consequences.

2007-04-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

today was a great day man.

was actually super tired in the morn. dunno why. think cuz of trng ytd la. but my eyes were super small la. wore glasses for every lesson hahas. anyways aft sch went to support the tl syf dance. i must say their dance was amazing! absolutely fantastic. so nice to watch them.. i loved their ending esp. so nice la. in that session they were the best sia. but heard the other sessions got nj also quite gd. oh well.. we shall see.aft that went back to sch where they had to remove their make-up and hair. my god they each had an average of 50 pins in their head. for the girls that is. and hte make-up i think took a long while to come out hahas. aft that went for dinner at s11. had prawn mee!!! :)) and coke from a can :))) and coke in the largest big gulp cup! :)))))) hahas aft that went to play pool at amk. threw divya jacket over b4 walking in. then aft that borrowed someone elses chelsea jersey in there. must say the shirt is super big la! i can wear as a night gown to slp hahas.

and then i did the most embarassing thing in my life. i almost walked into the guys toilet! omg. so embarassing. lucky nvr see anything sia. hahas. so super embarassed. i mean the sign was so small. (i only saw it when me and sri came out of the toilet) and the toilet was pink! so i just assumed that it was the girls one. omg. then went back to pool. must say its been a while. plus my dislocated finger felt super weird. so was super off today. except when playign with sharmin agn. then super tyco. hahas. oops. i realli didnt mean to! hahas. then went home. for the first time in my life got so many pple as company on the way back. first time so many northern pple. hahas. had fun laughing all the way man. realli funny pple.

sighs tmr longlong day. nervous man. for trng

2007-03-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

A: loves to flirt
B: Loves people
C: BEST SMILE
D: Has one of the best personalities
ever
E: Freaking beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to
do.
H: Likes to act crazy as hell
I: Loves to laugh
J: Freaking Rowdy
K: Really silly.
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with
M: Makes dating fun
N: Good at sex.
O: Loved by everyone
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: a freak in bed
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: very attractive
U: Gets hugs
V:Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to
do.
Y: GREAT kisser
Z: Lives life for fun

hmm lets see what my name means

A: loves to flirt (no not true!!)
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with (sighs wat to do i so loveable)
V:Not judgmental (hm truetrue)
I: Loves to laugh (trues too! thats why im always smiling :D)
N: Good at sex. (i dunno if its true. hahahas)
A: loves to flirt (same as above)

hahas so interesting.

2007-03-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

hm been watching a lot of movies the past few days.
caught stomp the yard on friday. was great man! enjoyed it. thoughn i think kelvin like going to fall aslp any sec. wa their dancing damn cool la! hahas
then ytd rented 3 cds. wat a girl wants, devil wears prada and step up. we went out to eat dinner. so missed wat a girl wants on channel 5. sooo. rented it lor. hahas. so nice. devil wears prada was not so nice but step up :)) hahas im a fan of dancing shows. today caught phantom of hte opera. brought back memories man. hahas. so fun.

sch starting tmr. a bit looking forward to it. but like must start studying alr sian. gonna be all stressed up soon. hope the teachers dun pile us with tests and hw

2007-03-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

yay! trng camp is finally over. not that im disappointed. just that i dun think my ankle/knee can take anymore. hahas reallii enjoyed it the past few days though i think mon and wed a bit boring. hahas tues was friendly with ijc we won!! hahas thrashed them to bits and pieces. hahas now i sound like yong. saw connie that day too!! hahas so nice to see her. haven't seen her in like a yr? damn long sia. was so happy to finally play in a match. hehe surprisingly we didnt feel that tired aft running 10 rounds round the track b4 match. hehe. next day also ran 10 rounds, did gym and shooting. quite slack la.

today was the highlight of the trng camp man. YAY SO HIGH!!! had friendly with yuying and yjc today we thrashed yy 60 smth to 30 smth and yjc 70 smth to 30 smth. but for the yjc one we played 5 quarters hahas. so happy. finally found a bit of confidence in myself. not so scared alr. i can finally draw foul from layup! jiaolian said i improved. so happy!!! oh but my 3 points deproved man. only chopped one in each match. the yy one was funny can. got so many chance to shoot then miss everything. then when the stupid long haired bitch shout boo in my face then i chop. in her face man! so happy. and funny. she so irritating la. i accidently lightly whack her head, she scold me cheebye la! and i got say sorry lor. bitch. must be because i touched her precious rebonded hair. hahahhas. so funny. k la i tired le. tmr must do work before going to catch stomp the yard!! hahas

im out!

2007-03-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

today's the start of trng camp. well trng day camp. sad man we cannot stay over... anyways morning went for maths lecture. was grumbling away. cuz came to sch that time saw soccer guys lea3ving for kl. not fair!!! why basketballers cannot go overseas! i wannagooverseas. hahas fun can. arthur lim la. dun let us go. :(( complex numbers just got more complex today. hahas last lecture i knew wat was going on. today. well. that just wasnt the case.

hahas
had subway for lunch with wz and ch. :))) yay. joan and marcus at the next table. aft a while yong joined us.. i finished everything except the cookie. now i regret. craving for it alr hahas. oh ya! i got some in my bag hor. k totally random. anyways trng was rather slack today. just a bit of jerks and curvy running caused some pain in the ankle. sighs. but overall ok. during our break btwn the 2 sessions we played polar bear!!! and a apple game. hahas. put water in a pail and let the apple float on top. then had to bite the apple. in the end we had water all over our face and saliva all over the water in the pail hahas. yong was the first. then aft a lot of her saliva drip into the pail, everybody refuse to eat le. so she had to change the water. hahahas. so funny

tmr trng camp might die le. 10 rounds round the track warm up b4 playing match against innova. omg. must survive. aft that still must take train back to sch from ijc and train till 8 or 9. must be strong!!

2007-03-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

caught dream girls on sat. hm. didnt meet my expectations hahas. well except for the super nice song listen. was even nicer in the movie. hahas.

Listen"
Listen,To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,the time has comefor my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your ownall cause you won't
Listen....

[Chorus]Listen,I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voiceyou gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won'tListen...

[Chorus]

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..my ownn...

super nice song. but kinda sad too. makes me start reflecting and reminiscing. hahas typical alvina. played ball today with kelvin james yong wz nicholas arlana and huijie b4 their pe session. must say it was super fun. hahas been soooooooooo long since i laughed so much. hahas all thanx to yong and her funnyness hahas. miss all the crap that she does. and how she always succeeds in making me laugh uncontrollably. hahas yay happy le. i think tmr trng can finally train le. but dunno if my leg will cramp during warm ups again. cuz i tyr not to put so much wait on my left leg with the injured ankle. then my right leg keep taking my weight and aft a while it will just cramp up. other than that shld be ok la i think. still cant jerk it too much though. heard coach say competitions are on april 16. sighs. some dreams i think are just not meant to be.

2007-03-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

yay! happy happy day today! woohoo. wait no la at first quite sad. cuz of maths hahas

hm morning at pe. heats were ok la. though i think i could have run better. but ankle hurt. sighs. maths that time test was ok. but like aft that mrs cheong sorta talked to us. the way she talk and keep looking at my direction i know she gonna single me out alr. i was right. " i've alr told you. you have the potential to do well. wat are you doing here?" and she points to the bottom half of the list. sian. depressed aft that can. instead of my usual PRAWN MEE!PRAWN MEE! is was just prawn mee. prawn mee. sian. i put so much chilli in it too. hahas guess i caught on to that habit from someone hahas miss her. anyways aft that tamil a level results! i passed!!!!!!!! woohoooooo! hahas so high. i got a d. hahas k normally pple would be disappointed but damn am i happy. hahas no more tamil for the rest of my life. that feels gd man. though i think surprisingly and ironically now that the exam is over and the results are out, i am finally starting to get in touch with my indian side. so funny. and shocking to many.hahahas
match was cancelled agn today due to the weather.. suay man. and being injured sux. i cant take it le.

i feel like celebrating hahas. no neeed to see ganesan anymore! man that sounds gd.

2007-02-25T14:59:00.000+08:00

went out with kim huizhen elsie joycelin and sunlu ytd to celebrate elsie's birhtday at NYNY!!! only me and elsie were on time hahas. went with her to gaurdian to get smth for my mouth ulcer. actuaaly dun exactly know wat it is. it doesnt hurt at all. hahas aft that we went to nyny to get a table first. kim and huizhen came and we waited for joyce and lu. hahas thier movie ended late so ya. they were late. anyways food was great. shared a frosty caramel swirl chocolate and a balck pepper ribs with elsie. super filling can. dunno how sunlu finished one whole thing by herself. hahas me and elsie didnt even have space for dessert! hahas. aft that went to suntec to watch norbit. hahas. quite funny la. but i think its ok only. i still wanna watch just follow law, ghost rider and dream girls!! ahhh im gonna go broke. hahas. so happy my ankle is almost painless! hahahas yayayy! i can walk and run alr. just a little pain at certain angles. next week can run ard again!! hahas so weird la one week nvr exercise alr. somemore the sweeling is finally going down. i can actually see the bones in my ankle agn hahas. k gotta go meet my dad now. sighs

2007-02-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

sports spectra on saturday was great!! hahas
met them at745 at clementi. almost got lost in the bus man. hahas lucky dhivya asked the driver for directions. had to change a bus to make it to the place in nus. were thinking in the bus that we'd probably be in the shield cup (losers pool) hahas so actually we were quite surprised that we made it all the way to fourth. woohoo! teamwork was great man. and we could play together. we all underestimated ourselves. hahas. all the teams were ok la. EXCEPT FOR THE NUS TEAM. bloody hell. the ball was passed to me and when i jumped, 2 pple pushed me aside. and i sprained my ankle. wtf. and didnt even get a foul for that can! end up nus got a throw in. k was quite pissed off aft that. think it showed in face too. cuz satoishini kept telling me to relax. but cannot la ankle quite pain alr. k la. my fault i didnt go out aft i sprained it. but i dun regret not going out. hahas. half time went took off my shoe and started to tape my ankle. my hands were shaking so badly la. lucky shini came and taped it for me and mr mohan sprayed smth on it. then went back in oops. hahas aft that went for third and fourth positions. but we came in fourth. so happy and high la aft that. realli had fun playing with everyone. took photos too. i want the photo!! hahas not sure who to get it from. wobbled to the grand stand and shini saved my life agn. hahas she got plasters for my ankle that heated it up. went for dinner at macs aft that. as usual cannot finish my food. no apetite some more. ankle throbbing sia. hahas now i got elephant ankles. super swollen. and the saddest part is the sinseh is closed due to cny. oh well gotta wait till wed.

2007-02-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to all!!!!

what a great day is was today! well except for econs test which i think most pple will flunk. hahas a day filled with love in the atmosphere. pple giving out gifts eveywhere. chocolates, cakes, cards, presents, flowers! all the hugs seen everyhere. in morn gp tutorial we had 2 dedications.. one for yujia and one for ms chan. hahas must say ms chan was shocked. and a bit paiseh. yupps 3306 gave her a bouquet of flowers and a card. i think she's gonna kill us when she reads the card. all the get married soon and all. hahas. then everybody was giving out sweets and chocolates and cards and everything. sofunsofun. hahas. oh but a super sinful day. which makes it all the more enjoyable. hahas so high and happy. cuz was practically eating the whole day chocs and sweets and cakes and cookies and coke from hei!! and ice cream and well got more but i cant rmr. hahas happyhappy day!

2007-02-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

first i must wish sunlu! happy belated birthday!!! hahas yupps ytd had cross country hmm not bad la.. but knee was pain as usual. so i slowed down so sad. but the last part cannot take it alr. sprint all the way!! hahas aside from all the silly teasing was actually a damn fun day. aft the whole thing me farhana ding kelvin wen zhao went back to sch to bathe. normally you'd think that the 3 girls would be slower than the 2 guys. but we were faster can! hahas then we visited the guys toilet and they visited the girls toilet. hahahas so cool can. they have urinals. hahaha. anyway aft that we went to seoul garden to pig out!!! so shiok. then we were like in a super singy mood. kept singing a lot of songs.. hahas went back with hilyah and farhana... so nice to have company all the way back.. hahas

today was off to sentosa with the basketballers!! so fun. i was damn early can. hahas must learn nvr to be early. anyways the weather was gd man!! not realli very hot so quite fun la. we did loadsa stupid things. oh ya. sunlu was late. super late. and we were supposed to be celebrating her birthday so ironic. hahahas. must say joan's body damn hot sia!! hahas so nice hanging out with the bballers. must have more outings! hahas

some guys are just plain petty. to those who know who im talking abt shhh.

2007-01-13T21:46:00.001+08:00

sux. been sick for like damn often. today had a fever. slept for most of teh day. last tues had like cough and cold and like headache. i think i need a new body.

2007-01-09T16:13:00.000+08:00

angelic reyna. HAHAS.

me. this time it was brandon's pose. hahas.

me! hahas zahidah's pose hahas

2007-01-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

me and my sisters.. finally i ge to sit down hahas.

3rd look indian outfits.

me agn. calvins pose.

me solo. i quite like this picture. hahas got room to design behind me.

us 3 reyna looks like an angel hahahas.

standing up! me and my sisters all got our dresses from there hahas.

2nd look mom and us.

2007-01-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

k com super lag upload 2nd and third look tmr. hahas

2007-01-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

me and sasha. she so adorable. hahas
reyna. starry.
me solo. jimmy's pose.
in the white room, first look, me and my sis.

2007-01-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

hm had my first photoshot ytd.. damn fun. hahas. surprised by all the reactions i got at nbyn though. realli very different meh? hahas esp the managers hahas. zu made his trademark loud whooping noise when he saw me aft the first makeover. mike when WAA when he saw me aft the second makeover. george winked at me. and daniel went 'wa nice ar u" omg. hahas. i think i look normal leh. but every one says very different. thanx so much to zahidah for helping us and being our consultant. man we took like ard 6 hrs la. felt so bad. but wat to do? we got 4 girls to make up. so wat can u expect? hahas k type for some pics :)

2006-12-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

Dinner And Dance : Naughty By Nature : 27 December 2006

hmm lets start from the morning.. had trng. was alrite.. kinda slack and ended damnn early! hahas by 9 plus it was done.. didnt run 2.4 with them though. cuz my knee quite pain. and i dun think im supposed to be trng yet. hahas aft that went to have breakfast at macs! then headed to k box and amk central. hahas must say it was damn fun! joan joyce and yong sooooo high can. hei loves to sing! hahas she know like practically all the songs.. zhi jun didnt realli hear her voice. she sang a bit only. hahas shina didnt even sing! hahas. then on the way back i saw sunlu. hahas she was like " how come u all go k box!!!" and" u all so bad go without me" hahas it was a last min thing!! and she and kim had sl.. so ya..

anyways rushed home aft that and proceeded to dye my hair so that i could let it down for the d&d.. cuz its been so long since i last dyed it got so many grey hairs hahas. my moms genes. anyway. took quite long. so i was a bit late.. met farhana then went to take bus to orchard.. wani they all were quite early.. and we were like 15 mins late.. so ya ended up they waited quite long hahas oops sorry!!! anyways the d&d was at club bone i think. nice place.. quite big somemore.. was realli fun. hahas we had thai food which was quite nice.. the tom yam soup esp was fantastic! hahas hot and not too sour. then i accidentally had like cherry vodka and like orange juice mixed with smth thanks to amelia and arryo.. best part of the night was dancing! hahas so fun la. danced with a lot of pple.. wani dun need to say la. she like high on orange juice and coke la!! dancing queen man that one! hahas ainee also damn gd.. for guys think sam's a damn gd dancer.. hahas aaron's not bad too.. so fluid movements hahas harun ar. at first dun wanna dance then i dragged him up then suddenly whoa damn gd sia. hahas i think he got all the ladies hahas. danced with nazir a few times too.. and idah! hahas oops no hidden meaning there. ytd aunty damn on man!! so funny la she.. so nice seeing everybody relaxed and all. then the ltr part got dragged by wani to the pole! omg. k la not so bad since like got 4 girls to a pole.. hahas wani super high sia.. esp when the dont cha played. then she went wild! hahahas. so funny to watch them. all in all enjoyable night!

27 december 2006. best day and night of the yr!

Last Day at NBYN
woke up earlier than my alarm today shockingly thought i'd be tired aft last night. then it struck me. whoa. today last day at nbyn. felt weird. hahas in work so many pple had hangovers la. heard that sam and remy mixed like chivas and 7up together.... and made a lot of pple puke on the way back or at home. wani didnt come today so sad.. so many pple were commenting on her dancing la!!! hahas a lot of pple were half dead also.. hahas. my first client was ok until the husband became a maggot. if the wife came alone she would have bought. but for my second one, the bf sooo sweet la. he everyday send his gf to work and have breakfast with her, then pick her up, have dinner then send her home. and guess wat? HE BOUGHT IT!!!! for his gf. sooo sweet.

lastday lastup lastdeal. NBYN ROX!

i wanted to cry alr sooo happy la!! hahas.

To all the pple at NBYN: even though my time at NBYN has been short, thanx for making it so enjoyable and wonderful, for guiding me and also encouraging me. known each other for like maybe ard a month but like have realli gotten attched to you guys too. esp wani, idah, ain, yvette, julie.... and aaron, harun, nazir... and also a big thanks to the managers, eddie for sealing the deal with my family. and also 2 of my deals. zu for being so nice, funny, understanding and encouraging. and winking at us and saying gd job. mike for being so scary at first, but realli sarcastic and nice when we start get to know him. george for being a body guard! hahas and also so friendly and easy to talk to. daniel for well being funny la. hahas since i seldom talked to him. and of course julie! for being so great and fun and easy to talk to and thanx for all the great advice! :))

ILOVEEVERYONE! N B Y N! Naughty by Nature!!

2006-12-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

k today was a super amazing day! nbyn's D&D was fantastic. food was alrite. but the best part was dancing!! woohoo. hahas must say that there are a lot of damn gd dancers hahas. so fun la. hahas k im too tired to blog abt it. blog more tmr!! hahas

2006-12-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

lets see wat has been happening so far.. hmm had bball camp recently. must say it was veryveryvery enjoyable hahas.. for more info please link to yongyong.. hahas i swear she practically wrote 4 essays on it hahas.. night times were enjoyable esp. but the best part was working thru the hard trngs together and the sense of satisfaction u get aft hard trngs hahas.. missed everyone esp aft spending 4 days and 3 nights together.. hahas.. loved the last day aft the test thing when we were running cool down man. so shiok.. felt so wonderful to have the whole team cheering together.. even if it was stupid stuff hahas aft trng

aft that went home to get a quick nap before going to meet elsie at woodlands hahas. ate dinner together and she gave me my birthday present!! hahas thanx for the jacket and earrings!!! hahas i realli like them hahas. then walked ard and like did x'mas shopping.. managed to get most of it done that day it self..then ytd went to meet up with tyhe ij gang for x'mas. hahas xiao hei also camp.. went watch saw 3!! hahas and stay over at joycelin's hse.. hahas so fun so fun.. slept quite late ard 3 i think.. then went to work in the morn.. hahas realli tried to be quiet but i i woke hei, elsie and joycelin up.. sunlu slept like a stone hahas.. even wheni msged them like 3 hrs ltr sunlu was still knocked out hahas.. so happy la! so long since i felt like that. so realli enjoyed it hahas.. iloveeveryone! hahas

work has been fun cuz of the pple. but the clients are big time MAGGOTS!!!!

2006-12-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!! yayayay im finally a yr older hahas just came back from bintan. was a nice holiday. relaxing.. but i missed nbyn hahahas out of the 3 nights i was there, i dreamt of it 2 of the nights can. but they are so stupid hahas. dun bother asking me. first day was ok. except for the carrying of all the stuff.. freaking heavy can!!! hahas then went for a swim b4 aunty jane and their whole family came.. hahas
the only problem was the sleeping arangements we had like 10 adults and 2 children and we had 4 rooms - queen size bed, 2 single bed rooms and 1 room with 2 single beds. so was super squeezy! me and my sis slept on a single bed lor! it was ok for me la..but i think i squished her hahas. then the next night i took all her blanket away. hahas well for the blanket you cant blame me... cuz at home i got queen size blanket on a single bed.. hahas.
2nd day was rainy..so mostlystayed in doors.. went swimming in the evening though.. hahas 3rd day went to the beach!!! k the waves are soo aggressive! but the water is so nice!! hahas

2006-11-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

k time to start blogging hahas
let me start with sl

k the first day i thought that well we'd be able to manage the kids. i culdnt have been more wrong!! omg. the kids are irritating. i wanted to commit murder soooo many times. the fun times were mainly before the kids came and aft they left hahas. seriously i nvr despised kids so much b4. but i think most arent like that. thats wat comforts me. and they shldnt be put in a big grp. maybe thats why they were like that. my grp emerald so noisy. i swear im going deaf. they can scream like nobodys business. u will seriously feel yr eardrums vibrate. so obviously we won best cheer. ahahas. kee kiat surprised me. first day he was on eof the naughtiest but then he stepped up and became the leader. while i needed all my patience and more to deal with poh hsien. soo anti social and self centered. its like too fast lor for a kid. hahas. and my grp had the most wonderful time coming up with the performance. let me tell u wat happened the second day during performance practice

me: "hey guys do u think this song is ok?(s club's reach)
they: "eh the song quite nice leh"

so me and yujia were like coming up with steps then,

they: i dun like this song anymore i want to change to chinese song
us:why wats wrong? why u dun like this song?

they:dunno.
us:ok.... so wat song u want?
they: "hiphop!", "crazy frog"

but majority chose the chinese song. so still ok. so we started coming up with steps for that song. then,

they:"i dun want that song alr. i want mambo no. 5"
us: ok. no prob. (since it was our mass dance song it would have been quite easy to teach they the steps rite?)

once we started with the steps,
they: i dun want this song anymore.
us: why?
they:i dun like the steps
us: why?
they: "dunno", "cuz its l-a-m-e lame"

i know how to spell thank u very much.

so we switched back to the chinese song.
then james came. so we switched agn.to that cascada song.then he thought them the steps all the way up to the chorus.. then they said "i dun wanna dance anymore!!!"
ok by then i was soooooooo exasperated. and pissed. i wasn't the only one. so was yujia and james. both nvr see b4. anyways the third day they were much better. managed to get smth to perform. performance was well interesting.

surprisingly kelvin's kids really admired him and listened to him. oh ad he soloed the performance too hahas

james was a damn gd emcee.

and we didnt screw up the dances!! woohoo!

exchange of x'mas presents was interesting. hahas started and ended at ms chan.
chewng wen zhao!!!!! hahas thanx for all the gifts and even the wrapping paper!! hahas. he like bought me all the stuff i pointed out at watsons the day b4. even the wrapping paper. omg.. thank you!!! i like all of it!! hahas

aft tat we wentto secret recipe and ate. i had beef lagsagne and a toffee twist! both quite nice.then surprisingly ms chan paid! omg. felt so bad can. its was abt 222 bucks in total. and she paid it all. so nice. so i think we shld do smth for her.

work.
been working at naughty by nature (no joycelin not kodak)
hahas its quite fun. basically im a image consultant who bring all the clients (aka ups) around. its quite nice. made lots of new friends like wanda! i think her hair damn cool! yvette and hannah! who are both very nice and cheerful! and wani! who is so super funny and ain! who was my buddy for the day the whole dya ytd hahas. she's als0 super nice. so basically its a fun place. but dman cold hahas. more updates tmr

2006-11-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

you're destestible, despicable, awful
you're a bloody bastard, a dirtbag,
you're sleazy, pitiful, insignificant and worthless to us
you're abominable deplorable, the foulest thing i nvr knew
you're a horrible, terrible, nasty, freaking sleazeball
you're vile.wretched.contemptible.and unworthy of us.
you're damnable. i hate u. get the hell outta my life.

2006-11-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

lets see sat had trng.. must say its been a long time since we had a tiring one hahas. stamina trng man.. at 730 in the morn. hahas. but was ok la in the end. aft that we threw yong in the fountain!!!! haha then we ran back to pedept and grabbed our stuff and rushed into the toilet to bathe before she could do anything hahas. aft that went o joycelin's new hse. its freaking nice!! hahas her old hse was like alr quite nice and like had 3 storeys and all. this one was like just 1 storey in a condo. and whoa damn nice can. her karaoke room super posh can! HAHAS looks like some posh club or what lor!! then everyone was like taking pics and all.. hahas left early cuz had to go for some party at sac with my dad. well its was great! except for th going with my dad part. hahas but most of my mom's friends were there. so it was quite alright. hahas i think i knew more pple there than him hahas so funny. some more they all my mom's friends so he was quite uneasy. hahas probably cuz they know all abt all the things he has done. hahas anyway all the performances put up were fantastic and amazing!! damn nice la!! some men even dressed as women. hahas damn funny can. really enjoyed the performances that were done by meera and mahen!! whoa man. best dancers and best looking ones of the night hahas. we were act supposed to go to my uncles hse aft that. but we insisted on staying hahas so we enjoyed ourselves when my dad fell uncomfortable. hahas. he even noticed that reyna felt more comfortable with aunty nithya!(aunty meera's sis) hahas and for the grand fianle the dancefloor was opened! hahas. was waiting until there was more people so that if anyone pulled me up, cna like go hide behind pple. but uncle mahen came and like pulled me up almost imediately hahas. but was fun la. enjoyed dancing ard with all of them.. fun grp of them. hahas dunno why but so far only the sac dances are successful. hahas anyway great night la. hahas

sunday hahas not a good day. my throat was just burning and had a cold and headache that went on until today hahas hope it doesnt happen on op man. of all the bad timings hahahas. op was qutie sian today also. we didnt realli do much. hahas

sighs tmr got trng but dun think im going. oh wells

2006-11-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

yayayayayayay!!!!!!! no more tamil for the rest of my life!! woohoo! hahas man this feels good man. hahas. bought new shoes today! hahas act. wanted to buy basketball shoes. but dun have nice low cut ones/ mid cut ones. so bought running shoes instead. hahas quite happy with it too!! hehehes yay.. k la im super high. tamil paper was alrite too. besides the fact that i forgot my entry proof and left my blue pens in my bag. hahahas was an interesting day too hahas. lot of things happened man.. wa tmr got trng at 730 ZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

2006-11-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

random deepavali pics!! hahas hmm there's smth wrong with my tagboard but i dunno wat. think i'll try to change it hahas

2006-11-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

dumdidum. tamil a's tmr. hahas and wat am i doing? finally deciding to blog. hahas. trying to put off stuying u see. my aim is to pass!! hahas.

been like doing op rehearsals the whole week la. getting sian.. hahas have a problem with eye contact hahas. todays the first day tat ms chan didnt say i need to stop reading to the screen or my cue cards. hahas but i kept looking in guowei's direction hahas.. oops well was trying to look somewhere near ms chan but yet still not look at her hahas.. then she said i need to be confident and then she said im very confident when speaking. im confused! hahas.

hmm think tmr i'll be going to buy shoes!! hahas yay finally and break on time during trngs haha.. happy!!

just gotta change of maid today.. me and my mom like stressed out a bit before it happened la!! hahas cuz the very first time we changed maid, it was a bad experience.. cuz that maid had been with us for 11 years u see. and when she was going back, there was a lot of crying, shouting, screaming and accusations (which proved to be true) and she even threatened to jump of the building.. hahas stressful lor. my sisters cant really rmr it.. but my mom and i can. so from then on, changing maids is officially stressful!! hahas.

sat night got party! wooooh! lookign forward to it hahas. fun la. but need to tell my dad that i need to cancel some function i have with him.. not looking forward to it man. sighs but dun think i can put it off soon.

think sunday having match.. 3 0n 3 i think.. hope i wont be too tired man. hahas k i think i better go study tamil. sighs but oh well hopefully its the last time i ever need to!!!

2006-10-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

exams finally over now the stress is PWWWWWWW. hahas. sux la dunlikedunlike. why do we have to take this subject man? so ma fan. k saying exams were hard like shit is definitely an understatement. hahas stupid aj lor. bumped into katirina ytd. super long since i've seen her la. hahas miss ij. miss susa la!! now that i've got this stupid tamil teacher hahas. wa super pms ytd la. then today so freaking tired. went to sch, slept, ate and slept.... hahas effective day man. and im still so tired.. dunno y also. k need to improve playing ball le. trng going to start soon!! ahh. hahas. going to be so hectic agn la.. hahas nvm. a bit randomn today i realised. hope tmr not so sian agn.

feel like its so superificial. not all but some. grasping for the the rope but all i can find are weak threads.

hm deepavali coming. havent even been shopping yet. aiyo. hate going shopping with my dad. so irritating. looking forward to COOKIES!!!!!!!. HEHE

2006-09-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

hady wonnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy!! hahahahas im super high now alr. hahaha i think he the u give me wings super nice haha yayayayay.

k alvina relax.. haha today was ok. sch ended at like 145 so shiok no chem!!! hahha tmr starts with econs lor ewww. but no maths and pe.. hahas rather have maths than econs hahas. studied globalisation today.. wa havent finish lor. made new specs.. colecting tmr!!! hahahas cant wait man... so exciting hahas my mom suddenly so nice hahas. man this week so gd. hopefully it gets better hahas

you give me wings when im fallin
u lift me up when im down
taking me high, touching the sky
well u make me flyyyyy.
:DDDDDD

2006-09-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

hm havent been blogging for a long time alr.. hahas promos coming sux la. my god. no comments abt it. hahas

hm sat went for haresh's(cousin) 21st bday party at tp safra. was enjoyable. haha havent had so much fun in a long time hahas. managed to see all my cousins from my dad's side agn. haha they changed so much.. haha and they said i changed too. haha.. fd was great and it was so fun crapping with everybody without worrying abt anything hahas. feel so free. wahaha. aft that had dancing hahas fun man.. satesh and malini can realli dance man. haha nvr listen to tamil songs for so long haha. looks like i still know the songs man. hahas long time since i went to these kinda parties and went dancing man. hahas miss those rare times.. haha then dad sent us back close to 12 am and slept damn long hahas. sunday was basically revising MI and resting. ytd was ok stupid alvina went to play ball.. haha did i mention i sprained my wrist? hahas didnt stop me though. haha aft that pain ahh. my hand kept shaking while eating dinner aft that. hahas today had chacha.. hm alrite la.. not bad. haha just super thankful that i didnt get to dance with some pple hahahaha. yay!! though what i heard abt one of them aft that scared the hell outta me. man. played ball agn aft that. shall not even comment on the wrist haha. hm need to start mugging hahas. but im so tired. man. great class, greater cca means jc life gd well if u minus the work load hahas k im off to study maths and do geog drq ciao!!

2006-09-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

sagittarius

You're sensitive and psychically receptive to other people's feelings. You soak up people's thoughts the way paper towels soak up messes. Consequently, your own emotional life may be confused, adrift, and vacillating between optimism and melancholy. The conflict is not necessarily within you. It is within the feelings you experience from others.
Once you learn to meditate and apply the scientific method, all will be well in your world. You need to develop a positive sense of sanctuary. Treat yourself to long luxurious baths. You need periodic retreat from the world. Pursue a worthy ideal.
You've gone out of your way to please others. Do you remember your own way? You can squint your eyes and over look the most glaring shortcomings in others. When you're stressed out you can and often do sacrifice too much. There is no need to be a martyr or a victim or a masochist. Transcend this dilemma through the creative process.

hahas hm.. makes u think hahas

2006-09-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

ok pmsing past few days haha. thats why getting affected by things i told myself i won tbe affected by. hahas

hmmm hols are going to end le. realli need to study big time le. the more i study, the more i feel like playing ball!!!! how?! hahas k just for 3 weeks. watched singapore dreaming the other day. hm portrayed a bit of typical singaporeans. but not as nice as i not stupid hahas. went for a bbq today. yumyum fd was ok.. then ended up playing captains ball.. then came back that time the food was filled with ants hahas. happy day hahas. tmr got lunch at some restaurant to celebrate my grandpa's birthday. haha hope its fun. tmr must chiong hw alr hahas. hm next week onwards got modified timetable alr. i hope sch ends like a lot earlier lor. then maybe like quick nap in sch then start to study liao.

we dont know wat we have until its lost. yet we dont know wat we're missing till it arrives.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with meI
've been alone all along

2006-09-05T21:56:00.000+08:00

weird post. dun even try to understand it.

u know wats happening, yet u dun do anything abt it. ignore facts and finally it just strikes u there's just nth left. if u lost a friendship with someone and yr friend loses the relationship with the same person, wat do u do? u cant talk abt it to each other. u dunno if it'll negatively affect the other. on the other hand u can find someone who emphathises with u, with exactly how u feel. u cna share the memories the happy ones and the sad ones with each other, grieve hte loss of a great friendship/relationship together. and be each others support. its so easy to say we deserve someone better. someone who appreciates us for who we are. wat happens when the only person who can make you smile agn is the same person who hurt u? how do u help someone deal with the loss of a friend when u yrself are facing the same loss with the same friend? is it worth it to to a want a friendship badly, one that would hurt u like no other b4, that will make u cry night aft night, but makes u so happy at times to? is it worth it to go thru all the pain just for the happiness? if u ask me my advice would be that its not worth it. u deserve someone better, someone who can give u the same happiness minus the pain. haha k alvina listen to yrself.

how did we let it get like this btwn us? it used to be so good. no it was great. one of the greatest things i ever experienced it my life. now gone. at first i thought i didnt mind. until it just disappeared. until i realised that i was shut off from the impt things in yr life. it sucked that feeling. i nvr ever expected us to become like that. drifted and apart. i guess it does take 2 hands to clap. im sorry. i failed. i didnt do my part in saving our friendship. but u didnt do yrs too. i didnt know how far apart we'd drifted. until i realised that u didnt talk to me abt things that happened in yr life. impt things. things i'd expected to hear from u. but it came from someone else. that hurt. that hurt bad.

i know EXACTLY how u feel. maybe i dun feel the depth of the hurt u feel now. but i am goign thru the same hurt. and i once got hurt as badly as u got. with the same person too. our taste with friends seems to be the same. so does our personality. i feel like im seeing a mirror image of myself getting hurt by the same person. and reacting and feeling just as i did. the pain i feel and had felt, was and is bad. i wouldnt want u to go thru that. i DON'T want u or anyone i know and care abt to go thru that. it almost destroyed me. i dun wanna see that happen to u

im starting to get overwhelmed. sighs

trust me. dun try to figure this out or decipher it. seriously i dun think anyone's gonna know wat im talking abt. hahas

2006-08-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

hmm it has been raining the past few days.. and i have been getting wet haha.. walked to the station in the rain ytd.. got soaked to the skin.. haha been a long while since i did that.. haha then i didnt want to sit down cuz i scared i sit then someone sit next to me and then get a shock.. haha cuz i so cold and wet.. then like near woodlands a lot of pple got off the train.. then i thought hmm why dun i go sit down? hahaha then aft sitting down i so suay.. this woman came and sat next to me.. omg haha i think she got a shock.. but heck la.. i mean she chose to sit next to me rite? haha and this morning rain like shit la!! haha was all set up to walk in the rain.. but nobody let me.. in this end my friends ask me walk in the rain.. haha walk halfway saw jas.. giving out umbrellas haha funny.. then she shelter me to sch.. teachers day celebrations was a bit boring.. haha. aft sch went to eat and walk ard j8 with yong hoping the rain with stop.. haha but it didnt so we came back to sch and played ball in the rain hahaha.. funfun.. then aft hat walked home.. surprised im not sick haha.. oh yeah.. dunno why but yong has this obsession abt walking in the rain.. she thinks its romantic.. this i dun understand haha.. wats so romantic abt being damn cold? hahaha

2006-08-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

some how, my life tends to be so interesting when my parents are overseas... hahas last night my door knob decided to spoil when the door was closed.. haha so funny lor.. well not realli la.. but i didnt lock it from inside.. it was just closed.. then some mechanism in the knob was screwed up.. so weird la.. couldnt even open the door.. then inside my air con was turned on, radio also and light all switched on.. oh did i mention it was at 1145pm? yupp.. so wat would u have done? dun have my books my wallet everything inside my room including my shoes clothes etc.. so i looked up yellow pages.. and i sooo lucky.. they have 24 hr locksmith at yishun... got the guy to come over.. so happy he managed to fix it but had to change the whole thing at the side.. then did i mention parents overseas? so he got like 34 bucks in notes and like 21 bucks in dollar coins hahas.. old uncle so nice hahas.. ahh been slacking around the whole day... must do smth.. hahas high sch musical soundtrack soooo addictive.. the songs so nice la!!!! hahas k la ltr i do maths while listeninf to the soundtrack..

2006-08-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

omg today i had a damn interesting day!! first let me start from the beginning.. normal frioday.. started off with tamil.. he gave us a compo title abt terrorism!! how the heck do you write abt terrorism?!!!!! in TAMIL!??? hahas aft that got econs lecture for once i was not so bored.. haha talked non stop rite huijie? hahas 2 hr break! so shiok always makes my friday haha then pw was ok ms chan said the source was ok so yeah.. hahas civics was abt SL camp for kids hmm hope it turns out fun!! haha then had trng aft that.. haha one on one sux. sighs anyways aft trng yong got thrown into the pond! hahahahahaha.. then me and mary went to took train.. here comes the interesting part

we were in the train sitting down on the floor then this person from china had a seat next to him.. then a malay guy went and sit next to him.. then the china guy was "why i sit here then u come and sit??" malay guy was like " this one public property wat i can sit wherever i like"
then china guy was like 'wth fuck u la" then malay guy said" u dun say those kinda things ah fuck u"

then was ok for a while
then the china fellow went to like stand near the door like abt to alight then another china fellow like say that the malay guy damn weird then they were agreeing with each other.. then started swearing in chinese the whole "kanena......" then the malay guy retaliated.. then both of them walked up to the the malay guy and started punching him.. like damn violent.. then the man almost came in me and mary's direction.. we were both like omg omg dun come here.. then lucky the malay guy walk the other side.. the they started kicking him and trying to aim for his ahem ahem.. but they missed and his leg got hit.. then he felt and hit his head on the pole then the floor.. everybody in the cabun ran out of the way la.. then finally think plain clothed station master came up and stopped them.. then the mrt officer driving the train was like "there's a fight in the first cabin, passengers we careful' over the announcement system.. then he said "thank you roger" i think thats the good guy that stopped the fight.. so scary lor!! and i didn t know that trains had like plain clothed people haha as in those officers..,

wa sucha interesting day.. now i believe them when they say that racial harmony in s'pore is fragile.. hahas

2006-08-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

Jan Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

Feb Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Mar Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

Apr Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

May Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

Jun You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

Jul Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Aug Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

Sept Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. .

Oct Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

Nov Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

Dec This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

2006-07-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

so tired dunno why. haha today was a long day. quite a boring day. had new south wales. didnt expect it to be so easy.. haha JUST KIDDING. damn freakin hard la. cheem man. haha. had LC aft that. sux like hell lor. like everybody had diff answers haha.so crappy now must go do compo. in tamil! sighs. had trng ytd. must say it wasnt a good one for me. foot arch hurt. knees hurt too. sux wat made it worse, didnt even play well. why jc got so many things to do!! grr i swear theres not enough time man.

focus alvina. focus. i didnt want myself to go thru that agn. yet i find myself dragged down that same path again. the same feelings, emotions all remind me, dun i ever learn? look on the bright side. it makes me stronger doesnt it? haiz

2006-07-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

k its been a super long time since i updated man. hahas
lets see wat has happened so far? got back results for some subjects dun even ask man. so far tamil has my best results. that NOT very comforting haha. well still got geog econs and gp haha. today was a reaaaalllliii tirrring day. went to sch wanted to slp. copied econs then slept. slept in almost every lecture. but i wasnt the only one.. think during pw wenzhao me huijie and kelvin all slping right next to each other. oh well wat to do? sleepy sleepy day. had a 2 hr break today b4 econs. and we didnt know!! so shit la. chem was so shit. spent the whole time playing different games with kelvin. oh and did i mention it was FREAKING cold the whole day? my god. and during chem lecture can die la. i think my lungs were shivering haha. aft sch went j8 and walked around then went home. hope tmr is not a sleepy day man. oh and i got stupid tamil oral too. diediedie

2006-06-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

alvina sick. again! ahh i do not get sick twice a yr. only once. shit la my silly sis. passed it to me. fever and cough. wish i didnt need to go to sch tmr. 2 freaking exams. ahh. swallowed 2 panadol extra just now and went to slp without switching in the fan hahas woke up by myself 35 mins ltr feeling better. i msut say panadol extra definitely has effects. haha oh and did u know that panadol extra has caffeine in it? haha i was shocked wehn i read it. haha so now im awake too hahas. which is a gd thing when you're trying to study 2 subjects haha. gp today hmm. so far i dun know anyone else who did the same question as me. haha excellence knows no gender. hahas. k off to study. ciao!

2006-06-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

dumdidumdidumdidum. imbored. hahas just finished watching the s'pore idol reruns. they announced the results wrongly! so bad haha. hm lets see.. ytd went to gym in the morning with kelvin and huijie. then aft that headed to norhtpoint to have lunch and meet wenzhao then aft that finally headed to tp to study and meet wadning who was waiting for us for super long hahas. walked into long johns and was shocked haha saw like half the ij bball team there la!! and the sec 1s were like she looks familiar.. grr. yup studied econs for a while then wanding followed me to go cut hair. walked to the hairdresser and was told to come back in like half and hr. so we walked around tp for a while. went to cold storage and walked ard too. hahas.but still when we went back to the hair dresser aft that we needed to wait. anyone else would have gotten pissed haha. anyways she blew my hair straight! so cool i was damn fascinated cuz i nvr saw my hair like that b4 hahas. and my head feels so much lighter now hahas went we went back aft that wqe got no mood to study alr so we just sat there and talked hahas.

today went to my cousins 21st birthday lunch.. i got to carry my new handbag!! haha so fun.. i like. saw bradley he's so big now. but still so cute. oh. just realised this sounds a bit wrong. haha incase anyone's wondering, bradley's a dog. hahas

tag replies

kelvin - hahas u can try haha but i think its as easy as making me scream.

sylvia - hahas unbelievable right? haha u got anymore quiz websites must tell me k haha

kelsey - whoa so hard ah. haha can u drive soon? hahas cuz i know my other friend like drives there too haha

2006-06-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

hm i feel proud of myself today! hahas i studied econs. hahas. i finally understand the price floor and ceilings part. hahas went back to sch for the study session but had to leave early hahas. hm havent been feeling hungry for the past few days. dunno why some more so weird lor. hahas oh and im not in shock anymore. hahas. ohoh i like this song so nice.. its from casper so nice if u all can listen go and listen!! its mushy though. hahas

Remember Me This Way Lyrics

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

* I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
(Repeat *)

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe
(Repeat *)

so nice. hahas next week is gonna be a killer week man. haha oh no.. not looking forward to it. hope that time will just fly man hahas. oh and trng starts next week too. been so long since we had aj trng too. hahas sighs

2006-06-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

k ytd's trip to ij has sparked off my reflecting mood.. hahas alvina's thinking a lot means not good hahas. seriously thinking abt everything somebody stop me!! hahas the past, the great memories we all the shared. the present, with all the great new friends ive made. and the future, will i like it? will things change? will i do the right thing? haha alvina doesnt deal well with change. sighs

hm huijie kelvin and wanding are at my hse. haha playing with animals haha sorta. hm huijie and kelvin have a new obession in trying to find out smth abt me. haha i shall not tell u abt it man. hahas let me change the topic. haha was supposed to go gym today. ended up not going . hahas in the end came back my hse lor.. so funny oh no k im gonna start studying soon alr. hm maybe tmr.

2006-06-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

ok long time since i blogged man.. i must say hols have been super busy.. haha got things to do everyday.. caught a lot of movies in the hols lets see.. davinci twice, xmen, cars, omen, dunno if i forgot anything else.. still got so many more to watch hahas
hm went back to ij for bball camp today. i saw SAM and CONNIE and HUIZHEN.. hahas long time no see.. felt good like sitting there and catching up and gossipping hahas food was alrites.. games were fun man.. esp the night walk. hahas am in sucha reflective mood since i went back to ij. haha the good old days man. miss everybody there.. oh no mid terms are coming!! shit shit shit havent exactly been studying. i wish i had a photographic memory then look at one page can now everything alr haha oh well

2006-06-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

just came back from match.. WE WON!! hahas yayay!! yupp been a while since i had that feeling hahas.. my layu went in!! haha i just feel so happy.. whee. dunno why today like quite calm during the match.. managed to dribble properly too!! that like NEVER happened before. hahas dunno where that dribling came from hahas.. watched armaggeddon today for the first time.. k u all must think im crazy. but yeah i always thought it was a boring show with arnold schwarzenegger. but i was wrong on both accounts! haha its not boring and there's no arnold in the movie! haha super nice i like the song.. and i still cant take it the father died.. so sad.. haha but super nice movie hahas. haha k im going high alr..

2006-06-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

hm when to sch to play ball today with yongyong.. kelvin joined us aft his soccer trng.. yupp played till abt 12 then went to eat at hawker.. been super long since i had hokkien mee la hahas. aft that went to ntuc.. bought so many things haha marshmallows that are still uneaten, fox sweets, caramelised biscuits etc. hahas then we went to 7 11 and kelvin got me addicted to the nescafe drink with the tiramisu flavour omg.. had like 3 la.. i dun think i can slp tonight.. shit hahas aft that met wanding at amk while yongyong went to meet kim and carena i think.. wanding passed her gpp to sylvia then she me and kelvin went to my hse.. haha we showed wanding our side of the world hahas yupp rented national treasure and scary movie 3.. haha went to my hse and i made brownies.. with help frm wanding haha then we watch national treasure.. its quite cool.. reminds me a bit of the davinci code.. yupp aft that wanding went home and we walked her to the station and we bought more nescafe.. oh no. came back watched x men on cannel 5 then watched scary movie 3.. haha not bad. hahas.. then aft that went online for a while, made kelvin do the soul test.. haha still cant believe the results la.. hahas and he did the birthdate thingy.. and his said like he's abit of a loner. hmmmmmmmmm.... now we now these are not that reliable eh? thats basically wat happened today.. now im wide a wake.. shit.

2006-06-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

haha as you can see people i was bored.. lets see wat has been happening lately? hm hols have started must say ive been busy been going out, to the gym to trngs and all.. haha caught a lot of movies alr.. poseidon, xmen,davinci and planing to watch a lot more.. haha been having this fascination with going to the gym too haha dunno why but its quite fun hahas.. joined my coach's outside team.. had a match on tues i think haha lost though.. didnt think we played too bad.. but yeah definitely can do better rite? hahas wat else.. hm parents are overseas haha so free now.. hm k someone said i havent replied to my tags so here goes.. hahas its gonna take a while..

sylvia,huijie,wanding : thanx a lot guys hahas im fine.. haha and im fine.. and i'll be ok

sam: hols are here! must meet up yeah?

kelsey: hey long time no see! how are things man.

huijie, kelvin: stupid kelvin, well huijie now u know next time we can go disturb him alr haha

well and the rest is quite outdated i think.. haha thanx guys for tagging..

2006-06-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

k i admit im addicted hahas

You Are a Purple Flower

A purple flower tends to represent success, grace, and elegance.
At times, you are faithful like a violet.
And other times, you represent luxury, like a wisteria.
And more than you wish, you find yourself heartbroken like a lilac.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen

Or lend a shoulder to cry on

You're there through thick and thin

Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Are a German Shepherd Puppy

Intelligent, quick witted, and a bit aggressive.
You've got the jaw power to take a bite out of anyone you choose.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Birthdate: December 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world.
You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.
Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.
Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done.

Your strength: Your inner peace

Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds

Your power color: Emerald

Your power symbol: Leaf

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Were a Cat

You are an independent person who inspires others with your dreams.
A calm protector, you will fight when you need to.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Nice doggy."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

2006-05-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.

1)joycelin
2)minser
3)wanding
4)sylvia
5)huijie
6)peiqi
7)kelvin
8)wenzhao
9)kim
10)joan
11)sunlu
12)carena
13)hei
14)mary
15)yongyong
16)elsie
17)periya
18)james
19)daryl
20)choonhang

How did you meet 14?
at the rj friendly match before she came to aj!! haha great girl and she loves chilli crab. hahas

What would you do if you never met 1?
life would be very different. secondary sch would not have been the same without doggie's owner!! haha yupp she's a great friend. fun to be with...

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
now thats a match made in hell. no offense choonhang and kim. hahas both total opposites. haha kim's laidback super high all the time and very enthu. choonhang is serious and organised etc.. total opposites seriously

Did you ever like 19?
hahas daryl.. as a friend of course.. anyways he's taken

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?

I dun think so. first they'd need to be lesbians. then they need to be unattached hahas. they are very different too hahas

Describe 3.

WD is calm cool and collected. hahaha inside joke. hahas she's a good friend, someones who nice to talk to, serious, and can be depended on. yupp

Do you think 8 is attractive?
hahas ok la. depends on how u define it lor. great guy. and great personality.. except for that time he tripped me on purpose then laughed. other then that he's
a fun person to be around with

Tell me something about 7?
kelvin likes to read comics, slp, go gym and eat bread,eat pao and insulting pple is his fave pastime hahas

Do you know any of 12's family?

Er, no.

What's 8's favourite?
food! haha and j**** hahaha

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
that is highly unlikely. haha im not her type first of all and even if for some strange reason she got abducted by an alien and decided she liked me, im straight so wat do you think my answer is? haha

What language does 15 speak?
she speaks an language that is unheard of. it takes a long time to decipher, and only sri is able to translate it. it is commonly known as "rubbish"

Who is 9 going out with?
kim? hmmmm i dunno.. spongebob's friend? hahaha

How old is 16 now?

17 as of feb 20

When was the last time you talked to 13?
this morning

Who's 2 favourite band/singer?
hmmm shit i dunno!!! i know she adores lotr and star wars though. i'll be sure to ask u next time i see u haha

Would you date 4?
well if im straight and she's straight wat do u think?

Would you date 7?
*coughs like hell.wat do u think?

Is 15 single?
yupps with loadsa affairs going on

What's 10's last name?
cheong!! haha joan cheong pui kun al least i hope i got it all rite

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
impossible hahas

What school does 3 go to?
gee i dunno. is it jj? ij? no maybe its cj.. wahaha dun thinks its aj though

Where does 6 live?

yishun!! haha

Whats your favourite thing about 5?
hmm great person to talk to and hang around with haha

Have you seen no.1 naked?

Omg. No.

Wad does this suggest of me when I do this kind of thing? Iâ€™m bored!!!

tag 5 ppl:

minser!
choon hang!
joan!
hei!
anyone who feels like doing!!

2006-05-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

hm today was an interesting day. last day of the term!! woohoo.. slpt thru tamil.. they were discussing lit which i dont take. then read thru econs haha slept at nexus then ate.. yupp tried to stay awake thru pw. haha aft sch went to gym.. bathed aft that so shiok haha.. damn fun la.. caught x men 3 today all the main heroes died!! so sad haha xavier plus cyclops plus jean!! :( hahas

from this point forth pls do not mind the language.

alvina doesnt reali finish her food often. when she does its usually cuz shes super hungry or pissed. its usually the latter than the former. u fucking bastard. just had to ruin my day didnt you? why cant u just leave us alone for gods sake? u dun care for us. well i lost my respect and watever else i felt for u a long time ago. and i think no matter wat u do now you'll never change how i feel. try to be nice? its a trick. i know. bloody hell. how many freaking times did u say u'll change? to damn many. still u dont. i think u're hopeless. i pity u. we dun want to see u. u know why we do? cuz you damn well threatened us. if we dun see u we dun get money. u sick sick bastard. dont u even feel a sense of remorse that u've reached a stage where u have to threaten yr own children to see u? that we wont otherwise? if you were to die today u know wat i'd feel? nothing. thats how nice a father u've been. i wonder wat yr tombstone will read. ~~beloved~~ father? ever wondered wat you'll be remembered for? im being too nice if i call u a bastard. but wat can i say. i hope it was worth it for u. now you've got nothing. nothing but the cash u earn out of yr job. we've got a family probably smth u'll nvr have agn. rest in peace.

2006-05-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

everybody's in school!! and im stuck at hm. im bored.. need to go see a doctor. but so lazy to walk out of my hse. i just wanna go back to bed..

2006-05-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

alvina's sick... sobs so cold.. running a temp.. 38 degrees lor.. and i think it'll go higher. i always get this sick thingy with super high fever once a yr. well better get it over and done with..iwannagotoschtmr!!! :( must get better.. so weird feeling so weird.. thanx huijie and kelvin!! hope i wasnt talking rubbish on the cab. cant rmr wat i was talking abt though. so if i said anything weird forget it. hahas ciao hopefully will see everyone in sch tmr

2006-05-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

had the bball finals today aj lost to hci so sad.. 38 26 i think.. yupp had to go give out the prizes.. gave out one wrongly!!! shits sia. lucky patrick when to ask and take back haha phew.. so scared.. hahas then aft that went to watch poseidon at the entertainment centre then went to meet some of my friends.. yupps so bored now so went to entertain myself.. haha so long nvr find yo mama jokes.. haha here's some for yr entertainment hahas

Yo momma's so ugly when she joined an ugly contest, they said "Sorry, no professionals."

Yo momma's so ugly just after she was born, her mother said "What a treasure!" and her father said "Yes, let's go bury it."

Yo momma's so fat, when we played hide and seek I spotted her behind the Himalayas

Yo momma's so fat, all the restaurants in town have signs that say:
"Maximum Occupancy: 240 Patrons OR Yo Mama"

Yo momma's so stupid, she got fired from the M&M factory for throwing away all the W's.

Yo momma's so stupid, when she went to take the 44 bus, she took the 22 twice instead.

Yo momma's so stupid, she needed a tutor to learn how to scribble.

Yo momma's so stupid, she ordered her sushi well done.

Yo momma's so stupid, she sold the car for gas money.

Yo momma's so stupid, when she saw the "NC-17 (Under 17 Not Admitted)" sign, she went home and got 16 friends.

Yo momma's so stupid, when your dad said it was chilly outside, she ran outside with a spoon.

Yo momma's so stupid, she called the 7-11 to see when they closed.

2006-05-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wulin!!!! hahas hm lets see wat happened today? maths was boring tamil was worse.. oh we had geog test.. hmmm haha dunno wat'll happen to it.. shld be able to pass i think.. geog tutorial was fun and super funny.. haha first thing, kelvin was the prime minister.. LOL haha choon hang also super funny.. his points esp.. "you all want to remain virgins for the rest of yr life is it.. its like the most pleasurable thing on earth.." and here we all were stunned and like is he talking wat i think he's talking abt.. then he clarifies and says that having children of yr own is very pleasurable.. haha and that we shld all have kids.. hmm some of us thought he was hinting to someone.. wahahaha.. shall not mention who.. aft sch went to cut cake for wulin!! yupp and then slacked around for a while with sylvia then went to do cca board. yupp redid the poem i wrote last time for them.. and then cut stars and all.. i think the board is quite nice.. haha aft that went to tp sports hall to watch teh volleyball finals!! we won!!hahaha so fun and nice.. esp the last part haha.. so shiok watching.. think tmr cannot talk.. we'll see. haha aft that went home with farhana.. bumped into my sis at tp mrt.. and her friend said i was pretty!! so happy wahahahahaha.. so weird.. but yeah.. now im home and bored.. think i'll prob slp earlier today.. so tired. hahas

2006-05-14T11:50:00.000+08:00

fri- went to my grandma's hse in the morning.. so long since i've been there la.. aft that went to meet huijie and eat at that ajisen restaurant at lot 1.. kelvin joined us after a while and we went to k box! haha only got 3 of us so that day had a lot of english songs haha.. and i think kelvin was losing his voice too.. cannot imagine wat would happen to him if he does.. he'll just die from not talking haha.. aft that walked ard a bit then went home.. that night got a call from a idiot who decided to make ju-on noises haha.. and decided to play ball on sat.. met kelvin and james at 10 at j8, bought breakfast then cabbed to yongyong's hse there.. so long since i act. went out with my friends to play ball.. haha so we played till like 12 plus i think.. james left earlier to go for tuition.. oh and i must say yongyong is very blur haha.. she went up to her hse to change while me and kelvin took our tiem going to her block.. then we were waiting at the carpark then she came running out of her block.. then we hid from her till she was a bit ahead of us.. haha then we were right behind her going to the bus stop.. then when she reached the bus stop and realised we werent there, she didnt even look back she just ran up agn.. haha blur man she.. then aft that went to bank with her and waited for her while she went to meet her sis.. then ate at s11 then went home.. oh smth super paiseh happened on the train. i was reading a book.. i havent done so in a looongg time k.. then i was super engrossed and i missed my stop!!! SHIT haha then had to go back so weird. i wasn't even sleeping or anything lor.. just reading. haha i hope nobody on the train noticed though.. hahas

2006-05-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

last day of the week!! means that the long weekend is finally here!! haha alvina is HIGH!! yay haha had napfa in the morning today.. didnt expect to do so well.. so many things improved!! haha first time i tried sit and reach stupid lim kok wee put the board so far from my hands la!! only stretched 34 cm.. stupid e lor. then all the rest got 5.. who in the world gets 26 points and gets a bronze? haha then when i redid with mr sanuse i got a 40!! yay its a c which means i get my gold!! yay so high aft that.. haha aft sch went j8 and pierced my ear. so now i got 2 holes on each ear.. took neoprints too!! haha tmr going k box! YAY i feel happy today!! :DDD

2006-05-08T18:02:00.000+08:00

so many tests this week! grr.. had maths today.. was ummmmmm... haha im happy if i pass haha.. hm lets see wat happened today.. um oh yes!! first thing in the morn, arthur lim spoilt my day.. he didnt allow me and yongyong to go for the match!!! i thought nvr get into the sch team nvr mind at least can go for match rite?! wrong.. grr anyway heard they thrashed njc 61 to 3 woohoo congrats guys.. yupp oh yeah.. does anyone like understand the words that are coming out of the econs teacher's mouth? its like i dun know aything la.. she can talk chinese to me and i'll understand more hahas.. i dun like econs.. and guess wat test we have tmr.. hahas hmm chem wasnt so boring today i dunno why.. maybe cuz i was talking to peiqi and watching kelvin adn wen zhao slp.. they are qutie amusing realli.. oh and surprise surprise daryl got caught for slping for the first time hahaha.. so surprising lor.. normally teachers nvr catch him.. so surprising kelvin didnt gt caught.. hahas aft chem went canteen with sylvia,yongyong,kelvin,wenzhao and we started asking stoopid questions and playing stoopid games.. haha aft that cabbed home with wenzhao and kelvin.. thats why reached home like quite fast today.. haha k im hungry i shall go eat! yumyum

2006-04-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

from one of my older posts.. deep deep stuff. hahas ive learned that we dont hafta change friends if we understand that friends change.

ive learned that no matter how good a friend is, they are gonna hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive em for that.

ive learned believe that true friendship continues ta grow, even over the longest distance. the same goes for true love.

ive learned that ya can do something in an instant that will give ya a heartache for life.
ive learned that its takin me a long time ta become the person i wana be.

ive learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. it may be the last time ya see em.

ive learned that ya can keep on goin long after ya cant.

ive learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

ive learned that sometimes the people ya expect ta kick ya when ya down will be the ones ta help ya get back up.

ive learned that sometimes when im angry, i have the right ta be angry. but that doesnt give me the right ta be cruel.

ive learned that just becos someone doesnt love ya the way ya want em ta, dont mean that they dont love ya with all they have.

ive learned that maturity has more ta do with what types of experiences ya have had and what ya have learned from em and less ta do with how many birthdays ya have celebrated.

ive learned that it isnt always enough ta be forgiven by others. sometimes ya have ta learn ta forgive yaself

ive learned that no matter how bad ya heart was broken, the world doesnt stop for ya grief.

ive learned that our background and circustances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

ive learned that just becos 2 people argue, doesnt mean that they dont love each other. and just becos they dont argue, it doesnt mean that they do.

ive learned that ya shldnt be so eager ta find out a secret. it could change ya life forever.

ive learned that even when ya think ya have no more ta give, when a friend cries out ta ya, ya will find the strength ta help.

ive learned that ya credentials on the wall dont make ya a decent human being.

ive learned that ya life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who dont even know ya.

2006-04-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

ytd was family day in aj.. was quite fun haha.. yupp
lets my class did a game where we were supposed to weave a ring thru a bent wire without touching it.. dun know how much we made though haha.. hm brought my camera took loads of pics la.. but me being a computer genius dont know how to upload it.. haha..hm wat happended let me see. watched our class guys play soccer at the hockey court.. yupp then aft that when to play ball. haha so fun.. didnt realli do anything.. basically just running up and down.. haha then spent most of the day walking round with diff people.. haha damn hot la the wearher.. had dunno how many drinks.. think all the drinks stalls made loads of money.. haha.. oh played joei's game too.. damn fun la.. got abrasion scar though.. was damn hot running on the mat thing la.. hahas then aft the whole thing went to k box!! haha wen with huijie, periqi,kelvin, yongyong, wanding sylvia and wen zhao haha damn fun as usual.. but this time couldnt extend by 3 hrs haha so sad.. huijie and yong left earlier.. haha then aft that like asked the rest if they went up the 40 storey building in tp b4.. they hadnt so guess wat we did.. haha yupp went to one then like me and kelvin were supposed to climb up.. haha the rest were supposed to too.. but they pang seh us b4 they even reached the second floor.. haha i think i climbed until the 25/26 floor.. then peiqi called me said they reached the top alr.. haha aft i hanged up i was like "kelvin? kelvin?!!" yupp guess wat he did.. stoopid guy pang seh me too haha.. so at the 26th floor i took the lift up to the 40th storey haha but i climbed 26 storeys k.. surprised my legs not aching today.. hahas must say been a long while since i went up there.. the view was breath taking.. the sunset was gorgeous! yupp took a great pic of it.. haha then we wanted to take a pic up there.. the problem was how to get someone to take it for us.. haha we couldnt exactly like "aunty can u come out of yr hse for a while and help us take a pic?" haha luckily someone came out of the lift.. haha yupp.. then we took the stairs all the way down.. haha felt like jumping so i skipped a step while going down.. took the lead.. then kelvin was like cannot let a girl win me.. haha so he caught up quite fast.. and he stress me.. haha.. so instead of skipping one step while going down i think i jumped 5 or 6 haha.. jump jump jump all the way down.. so fun la.. i wanna go agn!! hahaha.. so fun la.. i like haha but today my neck super super stiff.. dunno why.. cant look right or look left or up without it being pain la.. dunno wat i did.. hope it gets better tmr.. hehe

2006-04-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

hm today was an ok day.. lessons were alrite.. kept checking my watch for 245 haha it finally came then left for the match with yongyong. and it raineD!! sux la.. went to yck and waited for 76.. took damn long to come la.. finally got on the bus and slept woke up and poof we were in paya lebar.. didnt reali know if i passed the stop haha finally got to the place with yongs umbrella which kept overturning la.. haha. then we saw the guys match.. so drama and scary!! last quarter they were tied 53-53 and they went into overtime.. then they won 54-60 i think.. ya everyone was at the edge of their seats la.. then the girls one.. must say it was well played. we thrashed them 17-59 woohoo!! yupp but i know quite a few pple werent satisfied with the way the played.. all i can say is that it is the first game of the seasons and everyone needs time to warm up and be ready.. yupp so just treat this like u guys are warming up for the more impt matches!! haha yupp aft match ate the brownie i made.. yupp though some pple missed it :( haha then went macs to eat with yong2 sunlu chichi and sandy.. yup then went home.

must say congrats to all who played today!! everyone played an impt part in todays outcome. it wouldnt have ended this way if not for u all.

thought i was over this. guessed wrong. its all coming back to me. someone give me the strength to be strong. cuz im failing miserably. sighs

2006-04-16T10:15:00.000+08:00

had trng ytd in the morning.. was a little late cuz didnt know if it started at 8 or 830.. haha walked in and saw sandy along the way.. when we walked to the pe dept, i saw a sea of blue.. haha.. all the others wearing the blue dark jersey.. so scary lor they all stand together some more... haha training was ok.. kept running all over the place to get stuff.. first was to get chair. then scoreboard, then table for scoreboard, then joan sprained her ankle!! so scary.. then went to get ice for her.. had to get it agn when the ice melted haha.. played for while before trng ended. aft that went to get my lunch at central then went to hui jie's hse to do gp project.. her hse is super nice la.. so big and all. yupp finally had my bathe and ate there.. yup we slacked for quite a long time.. haha we even search the net for churhces in china.. then the search result page came out THE church in china.. hahaha.. so yes there are churches there. peiqi was quite happy and she msged kelvin straightaway haha.. yupp.. started talking abt our class shirt there too.. trying all the colour combis on the com.. haha.. forgot wat we finally decided on though.. hahas i even piggy backed her pig.. haha. and i got down loads of nice nice chinese songs to listen to haha yupp talked a lot of crap la haha so fun. then went home with peiqi and farhana.. still so happy from the k box la.. haha

2006-04-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

today was a super fun day!! haha lets see woke up sad for some reason.. haha but yeah manage to control it which means im getting better! haha then ate breakfast then went to meet wanding, peiqi, kelvin, yong2 and huijie at tp.. and i went for my first k box!!! haha damn super fun!! think they might have got me addicted but yeah. realli enjoyed myself. haha kelvin is the first guy i know who can sing, peiqi sing damn nice and can go sooo high.. huijie also sing nice.. yong sing crazily and wanding was forced to sing by us.. but aft a while she started to sing haha.. yongyong and peiqi went a little too high at one time.. wait maybe a few.. they were like jumping on the sofa and all la.. and yongyong was dancing like mr bean.. haha. damn funny la.. haha we all went to the toilet a zillion times la.. haha so fun the person like came in at 530 and told us last song but we sang till almost 8 la!! haha and we like started at 2.. we good man.. haha. took train hm with kelvin and peiqi.. and we started talking weird topics and peiqi like cannot let all the topics go la haha.. like churches in china, mlikshakes in macs, and chendol and prawn crakers in malacca.. haha damn funny.. think shes gonna do research on them.. haha tmr morn got trng.. hope it wont be too bad. and hope i wont get too emotional.. hehe i wanna go agn like today

2006-04-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

feeling so much better that wat i was feeling ytd. though i think even though i feel better im not ok yet. its gonna take me a while to get over this. but i will.

hm today was a fun day.. was early in the morning.. walked to canteen and no one was there.. so sat by myself for a while before xiao hei came.. she gave me a morning hug! haha yupp aft that had pe.. it rained so it was indoors quite slack la.. hmmm wat else happened? geog and maths was ok.. maths we were all like passing a packet of marshmellows up and down la.. haha we damn good sia.. so obvious lor.. and the gap btwn tables so big somemore so hard to pass.. aft gp went to eat at nyp with a few classmates.. the chicken rice costs 1.50.. omg la haha.. went back to sch aft that and went to 1023 with hui jie.. slept for a while before going for tamil.. tamil was boring as usual.. almost fell aslp.. and the class like quite small some more.. haha then aft that went locker bumped into joan sunlu and hei.. and hei gave me kinder surprise!! haha made my day! i like that choc.. i think because inside got toy.. but i nvr keep the toy anyways.. haha was planning on going hm aft that.. WAS until i bumped into kelvin and james haha went to play ball aft that..saw arthur lim halfway.. me and yong2 got our jerseys! yay i got no. 8 happy!! didnt think i could get it. haha yupps played ball with yong huijie, peiqi, kelvin and james.. was quite fun la.. going hm that time saw yuhuan along the way at yck mrt.. then went into the train and saw jasmine.. haha so coincidental.. yupp then came back home and had steamboat dinner.. yumyum super full now la.. haha

thanx guys for comforting me and being there, esp joan, jas, joycelin, sunlu and hei. cant realli tell u how much it means to me and how its helped. i know its hard to find the right things to say but i just apprciated the fact that u guys were there for me.. so yeah thanx

2006-04-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for a while.. no time man.. haha hm lets see we finally got our lockers!! which means the food stock has arrived anyone want food pls come find me/yongyong/huijie/kelvin haha yupps on thurs we went ntuc and bought like loads and loads of food la.. it was the best ntuc trip ever la.. laugh and laugh like siao.. yong2 wanted to buy a loaf of bread and kaya to put in the locker la!! crazy girl.. haha we were like damn crappy la.. saying that we might as well buy a microwave, oven, kettle, toaster and mini fridge and put in the locker. haha then pple wonder why that place alwaya got so much smoke and smell so nice.. haha had a sense of achievement aft that trip. haha teh most eventful and fruitful day of the yr so far hahaha...yupp felt so happy that day la walked hm smiling i think people thought i was mad.. haha yupp next day was a super great day with frequent visits to the locker.. i wonder why haha.. yupp but yeah sprained my ankle during trng so sad!!! it was alr swollen then became super big la.. went to see sinseh limin so nice pei me go see.. yupp bandaged it.. today cannot train.. :( went to sch and shoot ball kim joycelin and joan had heats.. kim 1st for high jump, joyce 2nd and joan 3rd for javelin.. yupp went back to tp to eat today!!! so happy i miss the smell, the food omg!!! aft eating went back to cck play pool with wenzhao, kelvin, peiqi, huijie and james!! so fun so fun!! been so long since i played pool la.. haha
miss it man.. haha then at ard 5 the rest left then left me and james.. then played a few more games. haha he always win me by last ball la!! except once i got thrashed haha.. yupp but i won him once too k.. haha just once.. then went hm aft that. sighs got sooo many things to do..

2006-03-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

today was i & e day in sch.. quite alrites la with my class whole day.. first thing we did was go play netball.. haha.. me and yongyong were queens while kelvin was king. yupp played truth or dare too in 1023.. so shiok la.. sit there in the air con.. adn i always get one lor!! not fair.. at least not as embarassing as ytd's. haha shoot shag and marry.. hahaha..hm. oh yes.. listened to james play guitar today. i must say he's gd. and can sing well too.. yupp was quite a fun day. then waited to go for trng. was like having moodswings la! super happy in the morning, sad in the afternoon and happy aft trng.. haha sumohse!!! salmon was great. yum aft that i think most of the rest went to ton over at someones hse.. not sure who they decided in the end.. yupps took train with limin. i didnt feel like going hm so we stayed at the station and talked abt my wonderful life haha. yupp reached hm a bit ltr today.. tmr morn got trng. then we going to spend the 320 bucks we won at the 3 on 3!! yay!

2006-03-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

went out with elsie doong today!!! so fun so fun.. haha met at 2 and went to catch date movie.. wahaha so funny i like.. been a while since i watched a movie and laughed haha.. yupp was super funny and they had cliches from so many movies like mr and mrs smith, hitch, meet the fockers etc.. haha aft that went to walk walk.. went wisma, forever 21 and tried on a few stuff with her haha..fun mans realli miss her la!! then aft that had a great long chat with her and went to eat ice cream at cafe cartel.. yummy!! eat ice cream! a womans way to solve her problems haha yuppp talked till like 6 la!! so shocking. time flew past without us noticing haha.. guess time flies when you're having fun.. yupp then went to heeren and continued our nice long chat and she bought her belt.. walked around a bit more then went home.. man. made me realise how much i miss her too.. had a great day today man.. been so long since i had one hahas

2006-03-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

rmr dont forget treasure dont regret.

must follow that. sighs everything is crumbling around me.. i realli mean everything. my whole life is just going wrong. im always avoiding now. i know its unhealthy and not good for me. but it feels better that way. yet it still hurts. i know thats not the way. but i dun wanna do it anyway else. im tired. worn out

2006-03-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

had 3 on 3 competition at geylang west cc today.. thought i was going to be late so rushed quickly but yeah ended up being 15 mins early.. thought i was going to be the only one but yong yong also there.. haha sat down and waited and waited.. carena was quite late.. haha went to macs and then wait for her. yupp then walked there.. me limin and yong yong were in one grp.. and our first match was like game 7 i think.. so yeah and lots of time.. i was like bc.. so weird la!! haha but all i did was start the ball and pass... never realli control so much.. like i even can haha.. anyway i must our first game was quite good.. yupp everyone played damn well la.. yupp and we were all quite happy with it.. second game was with yuhuan, jas, joei and sandy.. do i even need to say wat happened? ahaha.. poor jas sprained her ankle.. hope she'll be alrite.. yupps.. third game was irritating.. haha sux la.. lost by a shot. 1 3 pointer adn we would have won.. grrr. could have won that match.. grr. and i dun like that stoopid bulldog too.. eeeeew smug idiot. yeah aft that game watched the rest play..oh! and i must congragulate pple too!! cuz yeah, joycelin kim and sunlu got like second while yuhuan sandy joei jas got first (expected)haha yupp they got nice nice trophy and money too! haha aft that went to bugis to eat. was damn slpy and tired so didnt eat.. yupp slacked ard aft that then went home.. i dun like the tailor near my hse!!! sux.. k u're gonna laugh. u see my skirts are like farrr toooo long for me.. so i sent them for altering.. i asked the tailor, sunday collect can? she said can.... so i went to check tonight if got any chance of collecting tonight.. u know wat? they closed for the night!! thats not the worst part.. THEY CLOSED ON SUNDAYS!! shit la.. gotta go borrow..

2006-03-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

hhmmmmm cant slp dunno why.. had training today.. dun even ask abt it. went out with og aft that.. went to seoul gardens.. yumyum tmr i predict cannot move alr.. haha.. yepp was great. eat and eat and eat.. came home a bit more than an hr ago.. yupp wanted to like bathe quicky and go slp but yeah apparently its not working.. haha
keep thinking too much.. trng today was not good.. felt quite lousy, like im not improving. sometimes it feels like im just not good enough for the team. so why am i there?