Tuesday, September 05, 2006
weird post. dun even try to understand it.
u know wats happening, yet u dun do anything abt it. ignore facts and finally it just strikes u there's just nth left. if u lost a friendship with someone and yr friend loses the relationship with the same person, wat do u do? u cant talk abt it to each other. u dunno if it'll negatively affect the other. on the other hand u can find someone who emphathises with u, with exactly how u feel. u cna share the memories the happy ones and the sad ones with each other, grieve hte loss of a great friendship/relationship together. and be each others support. its so easy to say we deserve someone better. someone who appreciates us for who we are. wat happens when the only person who can make you smile agn is the same person who hurt u? how do u help someone deal with the loss of a friend when u yrself are facing the same loss with the same friend? is it worth it to to a want a friendship badly, one that would hurt u like no other b4, that will make u cry night aft night, but makes u so happy at times to? is it worth it to go thru all the pain just for the happiness? if u ask me my advice would be that its not worth it. u deserve someone better, someone who can give u the same happiness minus the pain. haha k alvina listen to yrself.
how did we let it get like this btwn us? it used to be so good. no it was great. one of the greatest things i ever experienced it my life. now gone. at first i thought i didnt mind. until it just disappeared. until i realised that i was shut off from the impt things in yr life. it sucked that feeling. i nvr ever expected us to become like that. drifted and apart. i guess it does take 2 hands to clap. im sorry. i failed. i didnt do my part in saving our friendship. but u didnt do yrs too. i didnt know how far apart we'd drifted. until i realised that u didnt talk to me abt things that happened in yr life. impt things. things i'd expected to hear from u. but it came from someone else. that hurt. that hurt bad.
i know EXACTLY how u feel. maybe i dun feel the depth of the hurt u feel now. but i am goign thru the same hurt. and i once got hurt as badly as u got. with the same person too. our taste with friends seems to be the same. so does our personality. i feel like im seeing a mirror image of myself getting hurt by the same person. and reacting and feeling just as i did. the pain i feel and had felt, was and is bad. i wouldnt want u to go thru that. i DON'T want u or anyone i know and care abt to go thru that. it almost destroyed me. i dun wanna see that happen to u
im starting to get overwhelmed. sighs
trust me. dun try to figure this out or decipher it. seriously i dun think anyone's gonna know wat im talking abt. hahas
with loves; alvina
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