Sunday, October 03, 2004
i nvr thought i'll be this stressed.. goodness... i have to go thru all this crap agn.. like once wasn't bad enough.. the difference btwn now and then is that this time its confirmed.. im moving to a new hse without my dad, which means my parents are getting a divorce.. well i dunno whether to hate my dad and be angry or be sad.. i mean aft all my mom has told me abt him i dun think i've felt that kinda anger for anyone.. i mean i dunno how she put up with him for 20 yrs.. but then agn, as im typing this rite in front of me are photos of my chilhood, photos of me and my dad together smiling away..god i cant take this all.. and it always happens during my exams this yr.. like i dun alr have to worry abt studying i have to worry abt moving into my new hse studying and my dads reaction and whether or not hes gonna be disturbing me ltr on that day while im gonna be trying to study for ss.. goodness.. i just wanna break down.. i realli can't take this agn..
well instd of woryying abt all this crap im trying to relax.. trying.. well the place im moving into is not that bad la quite nice.. condo.. got swimming pool and tennis court and all.. and its near sch.. balestier.. not bad eh.. alvina's finally not gonna be living so far anymore.. woohoo.. and i also got my own room even though its super tiny.. oh well guess i have to be satisfied and happy with wat i've got
with loves; alvina
8:19 PM
